To my soul mates

First of all.  Please be sensitive about people and local whereever we stay or we head out to.  I want harmony in this kind of action and activity  even if we move individualy, reputation of how each behave  belong to me, personally.

  May main concern here is to leave Humboldt county to give everybody time and space to act and behave.  I tend to pick up all kind of vibration and  to keep our friendship, I think its best  to  get together after  this problematic situation is solved  and when everybody  feel at ease and peaceful.
I am heading East however the best way it is possible I never drove this far and please undeestand that some things have to be tentative, but I will update as I go or move  place to place.

Please  Stop driving or stay clear from my environment  other than authority who protect my security and well being.   I  hope to stay safe and that wish goes to everybody.
  Please stop following me between  4PM   to 5PM TOTALLY.  and the device will be turned off.  during, and before and after for our security..

at the time we cross the county border, you  all would know what I would be "thinking", but if I could not get together with my guys,  I have to abandon whole plan again.  I am asking your corporation to move to next step.
 
 we hope to see you in Redding CA and enjoy traveling together
  and please   wait for me to update info here on the blog  so  as we go along, this could be sole mean of communication, and that is real possibility and our purpose going East right now.


So Many things in process that I decided to stay. I fel asleep feeling such hatred  emotions that make whole body cold and fearful.

  Maybe I don't have to go anywhere for now.


Please know that my spiritual guide, gurdian, Jesus loves me and protects me all the time.
  And he love people and things who is good to me and loves me truly.  There is no proof, but I think his love for me is real.
I trust his guidance more than anything else.
if that represent in form of my own emotion or part of other people's emotion just to let me know, let you know  something,

it just mean that we all are just  guided, by being with him.

 

Tule lake ,CA

Tule lake CA

in order to draw line in my responsibility, I had to go this town the other day.
I have visited the town of Tule lake ,CA many years ago.
  There is lava bed national monument and beautiful lakes, lavas and water and scenery of desert right side by side. The scenery of the area is very beautiful and very American. 
It’s very odd for me to mention this however, but I   realized again that how big this country really is comparing to the country I was born and grew up.…

I was in this town with my ex husband about fifteen years ago for sightseeing and caving the lava caves.
This time, I was thee for different reasons.  Not for sightseeing but for American spirituality.
From my point of view, and in my understanding, Native American‘s spirituality exceeds what it is of Christianity.
I see its focus is not divinity based on human, but everything that surrounds us and protects us, and there is unity in divine as it seems. More importantly, there is no “face” in expression of divinity as is of Christianity. I kept telling you all that Jesus was human just like any others. He was a messenger who had more possibility and ability that could tell and feel spirits in general, and that makes him psychic in one form of expression of who he was making him unique and prominent.

As part of my role or job, I wanted to test how mind reader affects spirituality and our economy.  I wanted things to be in natural flow and slow movement without the device or the technology that could alter decision making other than spiritual understandings.

Individual economic fall down is slow and manageable, but collective fall down could be disastrous


Tuned out, people believe in technology and my thought than nature law and spirituality of how it is
Good part of my attempt is I was able to draw lines that shows my best effort trying to change course of action regarding economic decision each make time to time
 I wanted that to be organic and natural just in order to survive together.

After all those days, I was finally able to realize meaning of prophet or being a prophet, or who Jesus Christ was, and what salvation really means.  I learned that saving economy does not mean saving people or providing means of salvation in spiritual way.
  I am here to enjoy and learn meaning of life together rather saving controlling or managing economy and that is not my work or my profession.

The realization itself was worth the long trip and I am grateful and truly appreciate all those people and intention that kept me safe and protected.
 



Thank you

News, movie, regarding US government and Muslims

As my journey goes, I leaned a lot about spiritual history behind Christianity.


There are so many things I do not know or do not understand, but I am still learning how things are including who Jesus Christ was,who  and what prophet is...

I watched part of the movie about Mohammed, prophet of religion of Islam.
As much as I was impressed about his core message, I feel sad about how things are happening in the Middle east or what his true believers are behaving.
  My heart breaking is with you for the anger and disappointment resulted from trashing behavior of some people.
 I believe that bottom line here  is, no matter what each believes, we should and respect each other and find a way to create peace in our mind and  in the world each lives in The movie actually draw interest within me  about book of Kolan and the messages behind it and relationship between Islam and Christianity.
 Maybe someday I will visit there with my friends  to create new friends if our intention for peace and love  were to be true.
I am taking no one's sides in this conflict/ issue regarding this movie. but  now know that  from the movie  how Muhammad was accused of teaching  something new and different from it had been in the area, I think freedom of speech should be understood in best way. Hopefully in smart way not with the violent act or malicious intention, but beautiful words and good intentions.
 

Maybe it is time for all of us to learn his true message.
 my love for all

what I believe

My recognition, sense of honor,grace comes from self and what you all call god, gods, or God.
not from any human with power in this world either politically or financially
I work for best for all of usand ectxpect best for us all.
things changes time to time.
I expect all of us to be able to celebrate our accomplishment changing course of Christianity.not successful act of dishonor but act of love and honesty.
it does not require following myself physically.
 just require understanding my messege, understanding of who I am

are you following my instruction?messages? teaching? or not is my main  concern.




 

9 11 thought

from the point of view, number nine is about responsibility and number eleven represent message  that usually brought from messengers of gods.number eleven is card of lover, card of Geminis

My question to you all is  did America ever changed something for better? receiving the message? before the incident of 9 11 and after 9 11. 
Please know that  I am not justifying anything.   I truly believe that things happened for  great reason and as much as that, I do NOT support the terrorism , the terrorists or act of terrorism or such action that result a lot of loss of life.  I love to see people in harmony even we share  difference in core belief about life. 

Where I am standing, many people made threat  if I do not act certain way, they will commit suicide or act self destructive way..  In my life it was felt within my country, withing my family and within my friends..People commit suicide so easily being unable to pay the debt,not having their way, having pain in life.I truly believe that  life is more than you can  exchange things that way..life worth more than money, family, certainly green cards or citizenship of wherever it want to or choose to live in.

   I am so dissapointed about all the manipulation testing my will, testing my love, testing my  belief, testing my patience, testing attempting to know  who I am..
In same level of argument, I see no belief, that you love me or have faith in  me, in factual reality all of those love to argue. It seems everything always rather end up   blaming  me as crazy sensitive.  I see both sides( both spiritual reality and physical reality),I appreciate all the protection toward me but it does not mean we are understanding each other in both spiritually and physically. If we both understand fully, there would be no sacrifices or people who  made wrong decision..  rather everything really is right at spiritual level.. just no one know what to believe or what to do now..

  Many people argue what to do but never about who I am, understanding of who I am 
I do not think or believe  anyone understand this core of question and answer and it frustrates me like never before.
tell me who I am
 why I am here

Do you truly understand why and do things in my way?
Do you understand why  I do things this way, why  I want to help those come into my life?

at simplest term,  its about either love or money.its about you have faith in me or not. its about understanding of natural flow of things.its about love, its about security, its about how each want to live and  how each want their dream come true.  ( it could be nonphysical,spiritual, dream, could be physical dream and goal of things)

I am trying to say it could be both or everythingyou desire.
Can you live in prison with having million in bank and unable to spend for the rest of life? is that a good life in Christianity term?. Is  is desirable life   or not.  I am telling you this  because thats what my friend commit with my money with my knowledge.
Can you live with life you exchanged family, friends for money, insurance, inheritance, anything you could milk things? just to  to live and pay your bills?,  Do  you understand own   boundary about what is OK to do, what is not OK to do?  Can you live without love or family connection that supposed to be based on love or wish to support each other?
the boundary of things changes depends on person to person, depends on situation to situation,
 

 Good life really means you have all kinds of choices to do things  having freedom in decision making.
  Amount of money is just one of expression that describe amount of freedom.. it comes with lots of responsibilities and lots of experience practicing the freedom,love and  its grace.


 Does America understand what this mean?

I worked with many being and still doing my own things being treated as crazy. I am that certainly in some level, but I thought we had dream of some kind to accomplish, so we are in this together didn't  we?


  No one has come to tell me how it is and  who I am.
 Would you care to tell me who I am?
 Who is your authority?
  Who is your hierophant in actual life term?


after all that harsh  treatment, I am still here trying to help you all
 does that mean anything?
I wanted to live with you all from beginning to  now
  things laid out this way is  no one truly understood me and always wanted to press control of some kinds upon me away from my  guidance and messages I receive.

friend's safety is my concern.  I know there is  things  to do
 So who is with me?

IDC

I don't really care about anything. everybody betrayed me and I need  financial support to keep going my way.
  My asset regarding with this blog is not accessible to me because  someone else holds my PIN information.  I don't want to sue my friends just because its not my life principle.
 am torn between how I am and what I am about.

all the donation and support went to my supporters who want to protect me from other harms
  So I am blinded both people's love, and support and other law suites and  complains about my work .
basically, I am here just doing my job and I would just have to say  too bad about many thing.

My family and close friends are all in same boat and I need direct help, so it will get to me for sure.
I  have no one who can support me financially though there are a lot of people who are in part of my life.


Here is my  bank information.
 if anyone could support me in behalf of my conservators who does nothing but to harm my reputation and credibility in where I want to live..

Surely they are doing their job, so I would like to ask different kind of support to be independent spiritually and personally.

My journey

As of today, I have decided that I finish my journey to change the course of Christianity.
 I could have ended or destroyed totally without my any attempt, and I gave my best shot and everything every mistake each made supported my dream to be come true.
I appreciate all that effort and time try to make things better.  I appreciate  all those for following me and protecting me providing emotional support.

My intention is to let things be at best So each can fulfill dream of their own.  My physical health and emotional health are at danger level, and the  stress level is indescribable.
 So before anything we worked go unfulfilled totally, I would like to stop my effort try to be perfect.

My dream still is to restore peace and harmony in this great world.  In order to work on that, I realized I have to take care myself better and should stay at ease from now on..
Anything happened within local or not local, whole country, or internationally, I would like to give up my control and help effort.  I am here to teach self salvation at most. And law and rules are already more than enough and I believe in professionalism in all of the areas.,

In my journey, I found three personalities of Jesus including myself, and several of  being existed in holy christian bible.  They worked for me very  sincere way and I hope their accomplishment to be recognized well no matter how outlook prevail otherwise.  I am just grateful about all the effort.

I believe that President Obama  is part of King Solomon personalities and I found  Lupi Gonzo and L. K. who share the same personality who performed his role  in my life and they provided great support both personally and professionally.  I am very  grateful.  Thank you. 
I hope their accomplishment to be recognized and honored at most.


My goal is to change Christianity and provide and teach  way of self salvation and create peace and harmony in this world.
Along with my journey,  President Obama, local government, federal government somehow worked together or following their heart personally and professionally.  I appreciate all the effort to let myself be and maintain safe environment for me to be

Issue I am concerned is about my favorite country, United States and Japan as much as the other countries.
I disagree with what country of Japan and the United States did  to me.  However, if there were to be great intention in the technology,I am assuming I did play my part very well, and as much as it works, the mistake has to be fixed. 
And I would like to ask people, citizen of United States that whether we should keep  improving Christianity together by fixing our mistake together or not.. I think that decide my fate and my future.
I  requested all the mind reading device to be off.And then to cast and  see the vote initiative.
 I would like to decide my own fate and life together.
I would still be connected online,by keeping up this blog in better way and would like to  keep enjoying new friendship I found


Thank you
May your god bless you all
sincerely


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