I truly believe that nature of abundance exist within the action of giving,and letting go.
I do not hold on to painful thought too much, at least I tried to.
In this three years of my spiritual journey, it was all about deprivation.It was my freedom, my decision making power,my faith, my spirituality, worldly happiness and worldly success, financial freedom, freedom to utilize reality and my abilities I was blessed, born with.constantly battling whether to give up my fight or not pushing against such control. Its safe and fakely , superficially protected. so hard to let this fake reality go, but I am very realistic. Knowing how things would go failure,knowing there is room for success or improvement, I cannot voice myself.
In this country,in my journey there were not much expectation for me to live or survive, or live in joy.
If this is all Christianity is about, I am deeply disappointed. though I am willing and hoping to find my way to be successful.
Hope to find my way to next destination to find and start next phase of my spiritual journey.
I need a messenger who could guide me to somewhere in the middle East region. Not or permanent stay at this point. I just need to know things and pick up something where it left off last time from the region directly.
If nothing is ready, then I need provision, my own perspective, and If something are ready, I would like to know how to find a way to bring success to the region as whole.
I do not wish to be engage in losing battle. I want success and most peaceful yet joyous process to the end of.. I want everybody to know that this may not finish in my life time, but if we have good beginning, good start, we will have something to carry on, something good to hand over to next generations to come.
I need people who could support me emotionally and financially supporting my life in general for this new journey. I hope to find such people.
6/29/13
6/26/13
Tatoos
because my dream is in the air
I can not keep crying
because my desire is in my reach
I have to keep going
because pain is pain if you try to feel it
My reason being here is my business
because I have to carry on
I have to let the all of burden go
time out of love
time out of possibilities
losing site of all,
time out
still see the rainbow of hope
before the flood
because I know
because I always know
your expectation is unproductive
power of one man is hopeless
power of tyrant is useless
power of the change lies on faith of people
power of the change lies on desire of people
for the change
for the peace
when the wall that divide East and West collapsed
we saw the possibilities of humanity
when hot yet cold war was over
we saw the possibilities of humanity
it is natural flow of the desire for peace and harmony
not one person initiated or crashed down the wall of Berlin
not one person tried to end the cold war
we all just made effort as whole
power of human is like a piece of dust
my reason being here is time of being
Its just part of my journey
If you see something more
I will change the flow
If you see something less
I will expand it to something good
scars on the wall do not bleed like body
scars on my arm heal itself someday
blessing of the divine
scaredd like picture perfect tattoo
maybe it look like a star filled with flowers
graffiti for peace
I am here
not crying for the spilt milk
out in the Milky way.
I am here
not caring pain of others they may receive
being ignorant
uncontrollable pain
No one know the real hell
No one knows the real pain of life
I can give you all as my guidance
soul speaks more than words
I am standing here
As my soul weep,
will learn possibilities of my self
will see power of people
faith of people
that never changes
goodness of the picture
just because I have to keep going
abandoning all the burden and pains.
I can not keep crying
because my desire is in my reach
I have to keep going
because pain is pain if you try to feel it
My reason being here is my business
because I have to carry on
I have to let the all of burden go
time out of love
time out of possibilities
losing site of all,
time out
still see the rainbow of hope
before the flood
because I know
because I always know
your expectation is unproductive
power of one man is hopeless
power of tyrant is useless
power of the change lies on faith of people
power of the change lies on desire of people
for the change
for the peace
when the wall that divide East and West collapsed
we saw the possibilities of humanity
when hot yet cold war was over
we saw the possibilities of humanity
it is natural flow of the desire for peace and harmony
not one person initiated or crashed down the wall of Berlin
not one person tried to end the cold war
we all just made effort as whole
power of human is like a piece of dust
my reason being here is time of being
Its just part of my journey
If you see something more
I will change the flow
If you see something less
I will expand it to something good
scars on the wall do not bleed like body
scars on my arm heal itself someday
blessing of the divine
scaredd like picture perfect tattoo
maybe it look like a star filled with flowers
graffiti for peace
I am here
not crying for the spilt milk
out in the Milky way.
I am here
not caring pain of others they may receive
being ignorant
uncontrollable pain
No one know the real hell
No one knows the real pain of life
I can give you all as my guidance
soul speaks more than words
I am standing here
As my soul weep,
will learn possibilities of my self
will see power of people
faith of people
that never changes
goodness of the picture
just because I have to keep going
abandoning all the burden and pains.
Well, here I am
I hope everybody know and understand that my effort trying to help criminals(people who committed bad actions) were my kidding
.Just kidding or could be serious. What do YOU think?
My writing, expression ,Its good guidance to follow. Country of Japan always know what to follow, how to follow my advice. not always better for my life, and wondering why I do not want to be there without doing one critical thing.
In my opinion, Jesus Christ was asshole,son of bitch who created mess in the size of the world
In American expression, I could only find right words to describe. which there are not any expression in my language.. I am borrowing expression that is most appropriate.
Well drama is drama, enough is enough.
Of course I am kidding
In my language, there is saying in my culture that there is no medicine for stupidity; death and dying only cure the deadly disease..Maybe Christianity got something right, but HOW WE BRING REAL death?
pushing the Nuclear missile all at once?
everybody want things to be real and honest and truthful.
So what are our solutions?
following a wrong map and get burned at the destination, feel burned with what they found was old Christianity.
If I give you right map,right guidance, good path to take, could it be better? Can we do it right and get to where everybody be OK..?
perfection is lost, damages have done,I am so torn physically.everybody feeling lost.
Is there anybody who want to be on my side?
so fucking tired...Please someone STOP this madness of Christianity!!!
Whether you all believe or not,I am the last chance to straighten Christianity.both old and new.
.Just kidding or could be serious. What do YOU think?
My writing, expression ,Its good guidance to follow. Country of Japan always know what to follow, how to follow my advice. not always better for my life, and wondering why I do not want to be there without doing one critical thing.
In my opinion, Jesus Christ was asshole,son of bitch who created mess in the size of the world
In American expression, I could only find right words to describe. which there are not any expression in my language.. I am borrowing expression that is most appropriate.
Well drama is drama, enough is enough.
Of course I am kidding
In my language, there is saying in my culture that there is no medicine for stupidity; death and dying only cure the deadly disease..Maybe Christianity got something right, but HOW WE BRING REAL death?
pushing the Nuclear missile all at once?
everybody want things to be real and honest and truthful.
So what are our solutions?
following a wrong map and get burned at the destination, feel burned with what they found was old Christianity.
If I give you right map,right guidance, good path to take, could it be better? Can we do it right and get to where everybody be OK..?
perfection is lost, damages have done,I am so torn physically.everybody feeling lost.
Is there anybody who want to be on my side?
so fucking tired...Please someone STOP this madness of Christianity!!!
Whether you all believe or not,I am the last chance to straighten Christianity.both old and new.
6/23/13
I don't care just need money , resource for my work and my day
I don't support unethical activity or do not support stealing or wrong doing. wrong behaviors.
Knowing it is bad,and illegal doing it anyway is always wrong behavior. When you do not know what is bad and what is good, you are just stupid innocent where nothing go right or nothing go wrong,nothing to regret nothing to accomplish.
After all the blog activity I wrote and kept records, its sad to see that nothing had changed. No improvement or no changes to be recognized.
I do not mind providing my copyright of my work when time is right and if it is right person to provide for.
I see this current situation is so messed up because of personally biased e management of things and my life.
Here is my offering. Eventually, I will provide my cop right to certain person who can utilize the asset,however, before I receive financial benefit and income resulted from this asset, nothing cannot go further. sex for money is OK as long as it is fun. Its personal choice to obtain any woman. It is his life, that do not belong to mine. As long as I receive my asset that sustain my life independently he can wait or postpone his sex until I started liking him to cause enough affection or permanent separation for good.
If they are intend to keep my asset as there are, they must provide immediate asset access to those asset accordingly.
And organization must be firm about securing my financial life, life security standard to be as same as them or equal in quality in the term of standard of life.
Are you F kidding? I was the one who created things to be read. without my work, there was nothing to sell or manage. I wanted people to "find "It did not meant to force the flow of curiosity or natural organic flow of human nature. If anything there were to be "work",everybody who touched my work to make money ruined core of my intention.
You all ruined many years of spiritual work which was done more than you all know or understand. the damage is huge and its done to the core.
More than anything, my good faithful intention and devotion for success got ruined. I should be the one asking total compensation of the damage done so far. It was guaranteed success. yet everybody had wrong foot and start. No one can justify my life damage and damage of my work to the core no matter what. When people make conscious decision to justify my pain as reasonable, everything go astray.
I am here to change direction from course of self destruction to course of productive. my life is(represent) your life, your life really is my life
Just make avenue for me to have the eight million dollars. and each will deal with own action taking money spending time as much as I do.
Got that baby?
you don't know what you want yet
you could keep your own life and my part of life. and when time comes, I will gladly give what you need to feel safe and secure. we maybe together we may not.
I hope to know why you are in my life
Its sad to see, you wanted that so badly and plotted killing me for the money??
bit sad, but everybody have moment of desperation.
Just like one day in our past
you can buy my copyright for eight Million and how about adjusting things between the two of you?
I will want to write something fun. done with online publishing spirituality that kept causing temptation for stealing to others. I would like independent people to work with me and publish it straight to hard copy.
Politically, I made decision to stay neutral. for both domestic or foreign issues.
I do understand that my opinion is eccentric and my view of things are eccentric and provoking. as long as I feel safe ad secure I will keep providing guidance and financial emotional political support.
Not intending to stop any flow of things. but if change were to be called upon, please let me know time to time
I acknowledge the power of my thought and voice. but I just cannot commit anything any project knowing its going to blow up ending up failure.
I hope to have understanding of my decision making ability. Its not perfect, but I know when it work, when its not gonna work. how it works, how its not gonna work.
I hope people to know that I do not like responsibilities and my size of conscious, this much of confident voice really is temporally astrologically stated and it will change time to time. I hate to feel wasting my time unable to utilize what I see and what I am capable of right now.
Please know that things were not set to this way. Everything you all have and enjoy day to day are supposed to be my resource and tool to be utilized for bigger intention and project for such auspicious time for me.whenever luck was on my side for bigger success we just blew it one by one. you all wasted my luck for success. sex does not define my success. and everybody crazy over who does what and when? What F going on?
I hope you all get smart and become productive enough to make things happen for my financial,my life security.
If he is capable of accomplishing,playing my role, I would gladly give him the role and the authority to manage things. but I want success. all of "work"and productive things so far is done by me.
started thinking feeling helpless in partnership. maybe not meant to work together. If so, we could be productive accepting the fact?
I hope to see how world look like for me.
It was all way to prospective as whole world before I found out betrayal of people.
well I offered solution.as always
what happened cannot be changed
what we can change is our future
Not so bright as used to be
Not so much to do
My hope is faith of people who stayed in that regions.
just appreciative you all stayed there.
God bless you all
Knowing it is bad,and illegal doing it anyway is always wrong behavior. When you do not know what is bad and what is good, you are just stupid innocent where nothing go right or nothing go wrong,nothing to regret nothing to accomplish.
After all the blog activity I wrote and kept records, its sad to see that nothing had changed. No improvement or no changes to be recognized.
I do not mind providing my copyright of my work when time is right and if it is right person to provide for.
I see this current situation is so messed up because of personally biased e management of things and my life.
Here is my offering. Eventually, I will provide my cop right to certain person who can utilize the asset,however, before I receive financial benefit and income resulted from this asset, nothing cannot go further. sex for money is OK as long as it is fun. Its personal choice to obtain any woman. It is his life, that do not belong to mine. As long as I receive my asset that sustain my life independently he can wait or postpone his sex until I started liking him to cause enough affection or permanent separation for good.
If they are intend to keep my asset as there are, they must provide immediate asset access to those asset accordingly.
And organization must be firm about securing my financial life, life security standard to be as same as them or equal in quality in the term of standard of life.
Are you F kidding? I was the one who created things to be read. without my work, there was nothing to sell or manage. I wanted people to "find "It did not meant to force the flow of curiosity or natural organic flow of human nature. If anything there were to be "work",everybody who touched my work to make money ruined core of my intention.
You all ruined many years of spiritual work which was done more than you all know or understand. the damage is huge and its done to the core.
More than anything, my good faithful intention and devotion for success got ruined. I should be the one asking total compensation of the damage done so far. It was guaranteed success. yet everybody had wrong foot and start. No one can justify my life damage and damage of my work to the core no matter what. When people make conscious decision to justify my pain as reasonable, everything go astray.
I am here to change direction from course of self destruction to course of productive. my life is(represent) your life, your life really is my life
Just make avenue for me to have the eight million dollars. and each will deal with own action taking money spending time as much as I do.
Got that baby?
you don't know what you want yet
you could keep your own life and my part of life. and when time comes, I will gladly give what you need to feel safe and secure. we maybe together we may not.
I hope to know why you are in my life
Its sad to see, you wanted that so badly and plotted killing me for the money??
bit sad, but everybody have moment of desperation.
Just like one day in our past
you can buy my copyright for eight Million and how about adjusting things between the two of you?
I will want to write something fun. done with online publishing spirituality that kept causing temptation for stealing to others. I would like independent people to work with me and publish it straight to hard copy.
Politically, I made decision to stay neutral. for both domestic or foreign issues.
I do understand that my opinion is eccentric and my view of things are eccentric and provoking. as long as I feel safe ad secure I will keep providing guidance and financial emotional political support.
Not intending to stop any flow of things. but if change were to be called upon, please let me know time to time
I acknowledge the power of my thought and voice. but I just cannot commit anything any project knowing its going to blow up ending up failure.
I hope to have understanding of my decision making ability. Its not perfect, but I know when it work, when its not gonna work. how it works, how its not gonna work.
I hope people to know that I do not like responsibilities and my size of conscious, this much of confident voice really is temporally astrologically stated and it will change time to time. I hate to feel wasting my time unable to utilize what I see and what I am capable of right now.
Please know that things were not set to this way. Everything you all have and enjoy day to day are supposed to be my resource and tool to be utilized for bigger intention and project for such auspicious time for me.whenever luck was on my side for bigger success we just blew it one by one. you all wasted my luck for success. sex does not define my success. and everybody crazy over who does what and when? What F going on?
I hope you all get smart and become productive enough to make things happen for my financial,my life security.
If he is capable of accomplishing,playing my role, I would gladly give him the role and the authority to manage things. but I want success. all of "work"and productive things so far is done by me.
started thinking feeling helpless in partnership. maybe not meant to work together. If so, we could be productive accepting the fact?
I hope to see how world look like for me.
It was all way to prospective as whole world before I found out betrayal of people.
well I offered solution.as always
what happened cannot be changed
what we can change is our future
Not so bright as used to be
Not so much to do
My hope is faith of people who stayed in that regions.
just appreciative you all stayed there.
God bless you all
to justifying stupid orders
The religious organization must confiscate all the financial asset that was produced by selling my live video camera broadcasting. and the entire asset that was resulted from my blog record keeping activity of the religious activity.
No ONE other than MYSELF should receive or keep the financial asset.(this is primal principle)
the asset has to become asset of the church, and is responsible for the management. and the church must be responsible to provide appropriate financial asset to my life management and enrichment for safety and healthy productive life.This must be provided individually in a way I have access to the entire asset utilization time to time of the need of life with support and appropriate help management of the religious organization.
this mean, they are responsible for management which go past present, future of this occurring of the entire activity and my personal life enrichment.
depriving choices or forcing to take any political stands,forcing personal life situation for particular unproductive action should not be part of their management principle.
they are responsible to attain all the means to manage the environment. through lawsuits or mediation or whatever it takes. the entire asset must become asset of the church.
No other church cannot get benefit out of this fund.( at this time)
this management has to be transferred to solely hands of the organizations.
No government should be responsible and future management starting today has to go under their responsibilities.
They must make official statement on where the organization stands about kid porn,child abuse, pornography, child molestation, and personal right about individual sexuality.
Any further principle must follow the principle, and all actions must abides by the own principle and standard and the management must prove standard of their ethical principle to the world.
It must be done based on n own conscience and belief, spiritual understanding of humanity,Christianity. Personal right and understanding of life in general based on faithful action of individuals.
The entire asset would be utilized to help supporting under provided children and woman who are in need of financial support throughout this world. I need evidence to see that the organization took action to make own commitment of this justification.
World will be the witness for their performance and successful management.
My faith and hope is that they practice it right and help children and woman who are inferior position. their life improvement is first priority next first five years throughout the world.
No one individual SHOULD NOT be treated as I dd, had been. I am firm about my standing.
taking the action is crime or sinful action. as much as that, negligence to escape responsibilities fall onto all the witness and observers.
This financial report must be published socially apolitically within five years. and published in the country of United States and is the witnesses are responsible for its statistics and the publication and the distribution.
For the practicality for the legal management and to follow procedure in of stated mission in this country,described above, the church should organization legal team for this legal justification action in my behalf.
the church is now required to take actions in my behalf for the entire justification.
at the same time, it is also required to provide living asset and life support immediately.
What I want immediately is Eight million with help of direct help management of the asset.
I need an assistant who work for me and myself and the organization. this individual must be able to keep c my financial confidential information safe and intact. this person should not be a man or any individual with personal conflict in financial interest from this past few years.
Neutrality is firmly enforced and personally prefer bilingual individual who can understand both Japanese and English.
Look forward meeting with you. we need to discuss copy right issue and the management.
My desire is publishing a book.
Core of the issue is justification of the entire blog asset. To manage it in a way I can still publish my book.
A this point, I am sole owner of the unclaimed copyrighted work.
addundum
because things got so messed up
I think Jesus will file the copy right of my book in my name.. and they are responsible to handed it over to Jehovah witness.
They are responsible for the management of the book and at the same time, responsible to distribute the income among three of us equally. I want eight Million US dollars and the other two will receive the same. no more or less.
Rest would belong to the organization for the management responsibilities.
I would like it to be utilized for goodness of the entire society that is not limited for
Christianity, or any missionary effort, such as non profit community development, youth and elder care, poverty improvement for both young and old. enrichment of each local community education is another.
Any philanthropic effort is what I envision and my expectation.
Please stay away from politics and unbalanced investment effort for this asset solely.
We look forward hearing from you.
love to visit state of Michigan, East coast sometimes.:)
No ONE other than MYSELF should receive or keep the financial asset.(this is primal principle)
the asset has to become asset of the church, and is responsible for the management. and the church must be responsible to provide appropriate financial asset to my life management and enrichment for safety and healthy productive life.This must be provided individually in a way I have access to the entire asset utilization time to time of the need of life with support and appropriate help management of the religious organization.
this mean, they are responsible for management which go past present, future of this occurring of the entire activity and my personal life enrichment.
depriving choices or forcing to take any political stands,forcing personal life situation for particular unproductive action should not be part of their management principle.
they are responsible to attain all the means to manage the environment. through lawsuits or mediation or whatever it takes. the entire asset must become asset of the church.
No other church cannot get benefit out of this fund.( at this time)
this management has to be transferred to solely hands of the organizations.
No government should be responsible and future management starting today has to go under their responsibilities.
They must make official statement on where the organization stands about kid porn,child abuse, pornography, child molestation, and personal right about individual sexuality.
Any further principle must follow the principle, and all actions must abides by the own principle and standard and the management must prove standard of their ethical principle to the world.
It must be done based on n own conscience and belief, spiritual understanding of humanity,Christianity. Personal right and understanding of life in general based on faithful action of individuals.
The entire asset would be utilized to help supporting under provided children and woman who are in need of financial support throughout this world. I need evidence to see that the organization took action to make own commitment of this justification.
World will be the witness for their performance and successful management.
My faith and hope is that they practice it right and help children and woman who are inferior position. their life improvement is first priority next first five years throughout the world.
No one individual SHOULD NOT be treated as I dd, had been. I am firm about my standing.
taking the action is crime or sinful action. as much as that, negligence to escape responsibilities fall onto all the witness and observers.
This financial report must be published socially apolitically within five years. and published in the country of United States and is the witnesses are responsible for its statistics and the publication and the distribution.
For the practicality for the legal management and to follow procedure in of stated mission in this country,described above, the church should organization legal team for this legal justification action in my behalf.
the church is now required to take actions in my behalf for the entire justification.
at the same time, it is also required to provide living asset and life support immediately.
What I want immediately is Eight million with help of direct help management of the asset.
I need an assistant who work for me and myself and the organization. this individual must be able to keep c my financial confidential information safe and intact. this person should not be a man or any individual with personal conflict in financial interest from this past few years.
Neutrality is firmly enforced and personally prefer bilingual individual who can understand both Japanese and English.
Look forward meeting with you. we need to discuss copy right issue and the management.
My desire is publishing a book.
Core of the issue is justification of the entire blog asset. To manage it in a way I can still publish my book.
A this point, I am sole owner of the unclaimed copyrighted work.
addundum
because things got so messed up
I think Jesus will file the copy right of my book in my name.. and they are responsible to handed it over to Jehovah witness.
They are responsible for the management of the book and at the same time, responsible to distribute the income among three of us equally. I want eight Million US dollars and the other two will receive the same. no more or less.
Rest would belong to the organization for the management responsibilities.
I would like it to be utilized for goodness of the entire society that is not limited for
Christianity, or any missionary effort, such as non profit community development, youth and elder care, poverty improvement for both young and old. enrichment of each local community education is another.
Any philanthropic effort is what I envision and my expectation.
Please stay away from politics and unbalanced investment effort for this asset solely.
We look forward hearing from you.
love to visit state of Michigan, East coast sometimes.:)
Dear people on the big boat
Hello. I am writing this messege to all people on the boat.
This situation happened before.
I suggested a party that involves everyone who love to share good time with me.
It turned out, because of the secrecy that insist I was a stupidest girl who was tagged, who has no management power of money or necessity of life, but hold power to manage whole world.
And here I am living their expectation of being the girl.
Its not fair to make one guy to break expectation of the others.
I even offed idea to milk things to make look like decent.
My family did not give up free money , privilege, power being my family
My friends did not want to give up future opportunity for more work and the my asset that has spent and gone while I was blinded by the religious activity.
to make look like all are fine, then why don't you run and broad cast the images and information of past Crucifixion movie that is already made to the people who are online listening to my thought?
get done with it with Pure man made ending of the activity.
Please don't involve me to make yourself look justified in all of this.
I can help thing to move in productive direction.
all you have in mind is killing confinement,how to use every opportunity to make money, use my life for something other than reasons I consciously agree with,keep the money, make justification out of my expense and out of expense of my pain and all the agony.
I don't know who you all are, where the party is, where the party is set up for.. self justifying party?
be realistic is the advice you all need to hear.
created artificial environment that make me helpless ignorant yet powerful tyrant, and then every effort I make to be good, it all go shitty lacking reality to make it believable of anything.
I play my role good, you all, just can't help burn it.
If you all know who I am, should be able to find realistic way to bring me to the destination.
Who is running this whole world right now?
and who is giving and who is taking?
This situation happened before.
I suggested a party that involves everyone who love to share good time with me.
It turned out, because of the secrecy that insist I was a stupidest girl who was tagged, who has no management power of money or necessity of life, but hold power to manage whole world.
And here I am living their expectation of being the girl.
Its not fair to make one guy to break expectation of the others.
I even offed idea to milk things to make look like decent.
My family did not give up free money , privilege, power being my family
My friends did not want to give up future opportunity for more work and the my asset that has spent and gone while I was blinded by the religious activity.
to make look like all are fine, then why don't you run and broad cast the images and information of past Crucifixion movie that is already made to the people who are online listening to my thought?
get done with it with Pure man made ending of the activity.
Please don't involve me to make yourself look justified in all of this.
I can help thing to move in productive direction.
all you have in mind is killing confinement,how to use every opportunity to make money, use my life for something other than reasons I consciously agree with,keep the money, make justification out of my expense and out of expense of my pain and all the agony.
I don't know who you all are, where the party is, where the party is set up for.. self justifying party?
be realistic is the advice you all need to hear.
created artificial environment that make me helpless ignorant yet powerful tyrant, and then every effort I make to be good, it all go shitty lacking reality to make it believable of anything.
I play my role good, you all, just can't help burn it.
If you all know who I am, should be able to find realistic way to bring me to the destination.
Who is running this whole world right now?
and who is giving and who is taking?
6/19/13
closure to play devils
In my understanding, devil is a creature that is lacking love in the intentions.
My world is free of devil. which means I do not play with him, but if there were to be, I have to become one that is better than the one.
So here is my deal with my devil that exist within myself.
I dionot have sex or any fake act just to get mony or what I want.
rather I want to give another chance to do things right, but more I give chances, it becomes debt and burden when they could not function right. so I will stop that effort.
here is my decision.
I claim my spiritual work I posted on the blog these past three year, but not in this worldly reality which mean I give permission to John Gutkosky and Bob Ritchie to have and utilize those resulted income ans asset. This Only could be done and authorized when I become free of their my life management and control. there is no excuse or any governmental issues for political reasons. it is obvious that any governmental effort for solution DID NOT work for solution.
Untill everybody witnesses my liberation, the financial asset should stay in the air and John and Bob Re the one who is fully responsible for my worldly debt I may create.
No marriage no particulsar relationship. is what I need. No family environment would help my restoratoion of freedom and liberation.
I am sorry. stealing is stealing. until it return or do something to compensate, there is no solution or nothing to talk about,nothing to do together.
talking about love? act on love by giving expressing the love.
cards are not everything.
if there is good intention, I will see it if one is lucky I will see it before my death
if there is good intention, I will see it if one is lucky enough for me to understand
if one ids not lucky enough one will lose opportunity to say sorry and thank you.
if there is no good intention, I do not need to be part of it, or do not want to know anything about it.
devil is artificial creature to make you act right and good. things that make you see opposite of the devil.
If intention were to be no one care or take action for the stealing, intention to act of perfect crime,
Surely such person, group of people do not belong in my life in my world.
Do not touch my heart and asset unless you could fully restore or replace it with another life that is so free and no bandages.
Upon my successful exist, John and Bob are beneficially of my asset, my inheritance.
If they want to claim it at peace, they are fully responsible for restoring my life privilege and quality of life, life value that is equal to what they claim to own financially.
Upon successful liberation, the inheritance becomes compensation, guilt free money
If I still care about them or love them in same way? is depends on what process they choose to take and make.
as long as they are doing against my wishes, there is nothing productive.
Hope they know I am more compassionate than others just being here.
Do you job and claim or justify own actions.
nobody else can do it.
I am not filing my copyright for my blog work. It is stupid to take such action when knowing any other laws and rules stop functioning. United States being temporary holder of my copyright make a lot more sense.
I hope United States know how to take care thing time to time depends on actions they take.
result we want is justification with compassion.
I want one million ASAP for the first installment of this justification process. and we can see and show how safe and secure this country's financial s e money management is. time to prove something to the world.
if you couldn't start from a good foot to talk first step, skip it and make peace with it.
is how I play with my devil.
So its time to charge up my credit and hope I get approved for my credit card application based on the reality United States live and survive. not the reality we decided to abandon.
Yes my income last year iway more than a billion in this sese.
Or Icould make peace with one million going the middle.
I am bit extreme any way. I wanted to be with John. but Until he becomes free of things he is obsessive about I don't mind playing with any of you.
I want you Greg..untill he is free, stay with me?
I want you Bob, until l he is free, stay with me?
both are Capricorn.. true workers at heart!!
so what do you say.
do you still want to get off with me?
cuz I like fun..
we can play devil to each others by eating chocolates.
just can't call it true love any more
sorry.
that's trashed and ruined after I created it.
SEX rules now.
I love marital sex wouldn't you?
:)
.
My world is free of devil. which means I do not play with him, but if there were to be, I have to become one that is better than the one.
So here is my deal with my devil that exist within myself.
I dionot have sex or any fake act just to get mony or what I want.
rather I want to give another chance to do things right, but more I give chances, it becomes debt and burden when they could not function right. so I will stop that effort.
here is my decision.
I claim my spiritual work I posted on the blog these past three year, but not in this worldly reality which mean I give permission to John Gutkosky and Bob Ritchie to have and utilize those resulted income ans asset. This Only could be done and authorized when I become free of their my life management and control. there is no excuse or any governmental issues for political reasons. it is obvious that any governmental effort for solution DID NOT work for solution.
Untill everybody witnesses my liberation, the financial asset should stay in the air and John and Bob Re the one who is fully responsible for my worldly debt I may create.
No marriage no particulsar relationship. is what I need. No family environment would help my restoratoion of freedom and liberation.
I am sorry. stealing is stealing. until it return or do something to compensate, there is no solution or nothing to talk about,nothing to do together.
talking about love? act on love by giving expressing the love.
cards are not everything.
if there is good intention, I will see it if one is lucky I will see it before my death
if there is good intention, I will see it if one is lucky enough for me to understand
if one ids not lucky enough one will lose opportunity to say sorry and thank you.
if there is no good intention, I do not need to be part of it, or do not want to know anything about it.
devil is artificial creature to make you act right and good. things that make you see opposite of the devil.
If intention were to be no one care or take action for the stealing, intention to act of perfect crime,
Surely such person, group of people do not belong in my life in my world.
Do not touch my heart and asset unless you could fully restore or replace it with another life that is so free and no bandages.
Upon my successful exist, John and Bob are beneficially of my asset, my inheritance.
If they want to claim it at peace, they are fully responsible for restoring my life privilege and quality of life, life value that is equal to what they claim to own financially.
Upon successful liberation, the inheritance becomes compensation, guilt free money
If I still care about them or love them in same way? is depends on what process they choose to take and make.
as long as they are doing against my wishes, there is nothing productive.
Hope they know I am more compassionate than others just being here.
Do you job and claim or justify own actions.
nobody else can do it.
I am not filing my copyright for my blog work. It is stupid to take such action when knowing any other laws and rules stop functioning. United States being temporary holder of my copyright make a lot more sense.
I hope United States know how to take care thing time to time depends on actions they take.
result we want is justification with compassion.
I want one million ASAP for the first installment of this justification process. and we can see and show how safe and secure this country's financial s e money management is. time to prove something to the world.
if you couldn't start from a good foot to talk first step, skip it and make peace with it.
is how I play with my devil.
So its time to charge up my credit and hope I get approved for my credit card application based on the reality United States live and survive. not the reality we decided to abandon.
Yes my income last year iway more than a billion in this sese.
Or Icould make peace with one million going the middle.
I am bit extreme any way. I wanted to be with John. but Until he becomes free of things he is obsessive about I don't mind playing with any of you.
I want you Greg..untill he is free, stay with me?
I want you Bob, until l he is free, stay with me?
both are Capricorn.. true workers at heart!!
so what do you say.
do you still want to get off with me?
cuz I like fun..
we can play devil to each others by eating chocolates.
just can't call it true love any more
sorry.
that's trashed and ruined after I created it.
SEX rules now.
I love marital sex wouldn't you?
:)
.
6/16/13
Just
My love, my soul mate, my another half
wanted you to know the love is real
nothing started if his love wasn't real
wanted you to know I wanted o help you first
carrying same burden of life
wanted to share what l have I found with you
my family, your family
I know they love me and you
more than you know
I know how much he care about you and me and and others.
I know he care about you
love is something invisible
the intention is so powerful
could be painful could be joyful to the core of being
I know you wanted love
I know you did not want the money
I know what money worth
I know how love worth
I know how much life worth
but when you lose meaning of life
when you lose health, this body
it mean nothing
reading cards mean nothing
I learned all that from lack of it
living througgh the life with pain
sharing same burden,
we can share good time or
we could share only pain
still you succeeded in life
made fame and made all your dream come true
was so proud of you to find it
bit sad to see the tear here and there
it is blessing and curse
meaning is value how you exchange it for something productive joyful
love, money, friendship loyalty
as much as you hold onto the cards
I have to, I had to hold on to my cards I play
its not competition
love is powerful
its just mean how we play is a lot more fun
I just wanted you to know how much power I earned
by finding him
when I made a wish,
when I hid my tarot cards and learned let things be
when I choose not to use the tarot cards.
it was my beginning
then I found America
everything began at that time
Yes my love is my cards I play
He is always pure benign
nobody really know
how good it is
how powerful it is
whtat card he is holding
how powerful impractical his life is
so impractical, but fun
my family is filled with impractical idea
its not fire or air or soil
its water and mud
don't ;look good at all for rainy days
water mean nothing if you don't wanna drink it
water mean nothing if you are not thisty
try to swallow fire
did not work
casting magic wand in air
did not work
waiting to grab the clouds
I can play fire with you
as much as my love allowed me to do
as much as there is water
secure safe for you and for me
I love you
why don't you see?
he loves you
why don't you see?
I am just a messenger to help others
I hope you know how much I respected, loved you,
and probably still do all and I will love you
no matter what I see
Just stop and find love
there is a lot
more than you know
made yourself ahead of life
6/14/13
Sex Sex Sex
I never said I wouldn't do it
I 'd rather WANT to do it to make my point
I would do it for something good
always
I am up for fun
I would do it for greater good
lI would do it for fun
I would do it for joy
I would do it for love
I would do it for peace
always misunderstood
I never have had enough choices and freedom any way
choices confuse people
not even know what is good what is bad
not even know what is dream what is nightmare
that kept me tiny and smart lovable poor
So its time to tmake ends meet
I would do it to take choices and freedom away from my fellow children
Sex is just act of intercourse
biological activity for having a baby
nothing more or less
if you call that as love you are freaking liar
at least I would do it for my love I really wanted to do with
and then I have decision to make
who to hurt
who to protect
majority always win
authority always keep things in tact for safety of people
Planet of Saturn is all about authority
Planet of Jupiter is all about Justice
Sex could be reward
Sex could be punishment
full of it
lack of it'
but it does not t matter
money rules world
Mercury and Venus rules mind of people
to do my job, it takes tool and resource
rain it away,
fine by me
wasting life of Christ
fine by me
life is life
money can't buy you success
money can't buy you love
pride pays you nothing
but let you live in moment of grace
Why are you here on earth any away
Sex is great answer
male? female?
why?
pleasure
ecstasy
senses emotion coming together
lets have sex
and I authorize to call it "love"
declaration of love
mission o be accomplished for this world
me and my love win
cuz we were right
can't trust human for the love
we created
his nightmare is real
his dream was real
and then trashed
all over again
love love love
I 'd rather WANT to do it to make my point
I would do it for something good
always
I am up for fun
I would do it for greater good
lI would do it for fun
I would do it for joy
I would do it for love
I would do it for peace
always misunderstood
I never have had enough choices and freedom any way
choices confuse people
not even know what is good what is bad
not even know what is dream what is nightmare
that kept me tiny and smart lovable poor
So its time to tmake ends meet
I would do it to take choices and freedom away from my fellow children
Sex is just act of intercourse
biological activity for having a baby
nothing more or less
if you call that as love you are freaking liar
at least I would do it for my love I really wanted to do with
and then I have decision to make
who to hurt
who to protect
majority always win
authority always keep things in tact for safety of people
Planet of Saturn is all about authority
Planet of Jupiter is all about Justice
Sex could be reward
Sex could be punishment
full of it
lack of it'
but it does not t matter
money rules world
Mercury and Venus rules mind of people
to do my job, it takes tool and resource
rain it away,
fine by me
wasting life of Christ
fine by me
life is life
money can't buy you success
money can't buy you love
pride pays you nothing
but let you live in moment of grace
Why are you here on earth any away
Sex is great answer
male? female?
why?
pleasure
ecstasy
senses emotion coming together
lets have sex
and I authorize to call it "love"
declaration of love
mission o be accomplished for this world
me and my love win
cuz we were right
can't trust human for the love
we created
his nightmare is real
his dream was real
and then trashed
all over again
love love love
6/13/13
my friend's question about ying and yang
Ying and Yang rally represent Karma and positive and negative, cause and effect and there is harmony as a whole. probably is main philosophy. there is good as much as bad. no matter how it seems.
its all in balance.. opposite is good if you want to lean something from another. Astrology states that opposite sign in the zodiac chart quite attract each other. My sign is dominated by Jupiter and Saturn and Uranus. My ruler is Jupiter and Neptune. Jupiter and Saturn are two biggest planets in the sky. pulling each other being opposite in sky could create whole world of unease. Surely I am capable of having big arm than anyone for sure. but my restriction, eccentricity could be as huge as generosity to opposite factor.
Jupiter is generous compassionate, but it is also planet of Justice..reward and punishment...sometimes necessary, sometimes not really.. I mean who want justice anyway when everybody is guilty.
partnership being same or similar in ins, or in course of action, is easier to go with in life travel. I want to go East,if my mates want to go West, we may have to compromise own desire making taking detour a lot..in my culture, there is idea changing direction, course of action, to change luck of things. when you want to go North, but if its bad omen,you go South first and then go East or west and then head to original direction.. its changing flow of power of mind.|it get there eventually.
its better to stay in the core, being in love and do things together by giving each own way
so you can take all action in all direction.
staying with Jesus, staying core of who you are, really means stay peaceful being positive possible to all kind of direction. we get there someday with someone. with it(him) or not with i(him)t is up to individual. if you stay with him,the journey, being with him would be joyous fun, fulfilling the process getting there becomes purpose and something to enjoy.nothing to pull or push. Just follow it go along with it..
beings with him really mean figuring out who is Jesus,finding your own Jesus.and again you should know what ying and yang means to figure out things, finding him.
he will not restricting self by fear or negative influence or unproductive expectation.
people hardly take bad action when being comfortable content.| only when in despair and depression, they take all kind of unhealthy self destructive behaviors and actions
what does this mean to you and me?
that's real good question.
6/12/13
my love
by putting our hands on rest
let us enjoy the moment
we did enough
to share the moment of pure love
we did try enough
to share the taste of the water
by putting our hands up in the air
I know you be there to hold it if I fell in old trap of pain
by putting things to rest
let us enjoy our lives
we did enough
love is too strong medicine for many
healing is all about power management
so powerful
so mighty
there is no instruction
there is only instinct to know what it is
in handling
in utilizing
First moment is everything
First words is everything
when everything is up to hands of others
love is useless
the warmth is useless
lets rest things to let it be
bring it to hands of God
his mighty
his grace cures all of my worry and anxiety
time to let the water flow
time to let the sky to be blue
time to shine the light through the clouds
you know that I belong to the Sunshine
my heart belong to where it is
in the hands of God
let us enjoy the moment
we did enough
to share the moment of pure love
we did try enough
to share the taste of the water
by putting our hands up in the air
I know you be there to hold it if I fell in old trap of pain
by putting things to rest
let us enjoy our lives
we did enough
love is too strong medicine for many
healing is all about power management
so powerful
so mighty
there is no instruction
there is only instinct to know what it is
in handling
in utilizing
First moment is everything
First words is everything
when everything is up to hands of others
love is useless
the warmth is useless
lets rest things to let it be
bring it to hands of God
his mighty
his grace cures all of my worry and anxiety
time to let the water flow
time to let the sky to be blue
time to shine the light through the clouds
you know that I belong to the Sunshine
my heart belong to where it is
in the hands of God
6/11/13
save the animal effort
世界中の犬や猫をすくいたいとおもいませんか？
would you like to save animals that exist in this world?
ぼきんをあつめています
匿名でのぼきんごきょうりょくください
we are looking for special donation.
this is once in life time opportunities to MAKE DIFFERENCE
to the world.
coast central credit union
coast central credit union in Eureka, CA
membership saving account
からしともこほーん
account number 185291
routing number unknown
call 1 800-922-8880 for the bank routing info
would you like to save animals that exist in this world?
ぼきんをあつめています
匿名でのぼきんごきょうりょくください
we are looking for special donation.
this is once in life time opportunities to MAKE DIFFERENCE
to the world.
coast central credit union
coast central credit union in Eureka, CA
membership saving account
からしともこほーん
account number 185291
routing number unknown
call 1 800-922-8880 for the bank routing info