June first

the day, June first is my grandfather's birthday.
He is a person  who loved my weird nature most in my life.  He thought being different in my own way was somehow unique  and inventive.With his acceptance,I always wanted to make him proud more than anything anybody.  I always knew that he loved me.  He always wanted do many things for me to make me happy. Although He did not talk much about, I know that he prayed a lot for his grandchildren.
He knew what I like, and what I get scared of well. I was like always his baby who was afraid of dark. always walked for me from train station near by to home Although I had a bicycle to ride home,he was just there waiting for me to make me feel secured. 
  its been years since he passed away.  And being in dark doesn't scares me much any more,But every  life's turning point, he shows up in my dream as if he wanted to reminds me of the security.  I have not seen him for many months.. never said a word in such dreams, but always look at me in same loving way.

 He loved carpentry and loved new technology,bought me very first PC, loved spending time taking care plants and the  roses that bloom in his yard was always mine.. 

miss you and love you, grandpa
hope you are still proud of me..

The hours (movie)

I believe that death is always an issue or something to think about as long as I am alive  Although issues about quality of life, choice of life  are also related to questions about death as deeply connected  matters.
The movie called "The Hours"addresses death and such issues.





I did not like or find any satisfaction watching this movie,so it is hard to make a comment.  My question was  is it always necessary to describe death or killing in order to feel,express, or experience value of life?
the beginning and the ending of the story is sort of same and I saw no development other than frustration for life.  Maybe that is where I am?

yet still would like to believe life, survival  first, love second.. I hope I would ever have to one or the other in my life? on anyone's life?I think that is a tragedy

What Abraham would say

this physical reality exist based on contrast  what make you  feel good and what make you feel bad

the contrast is basis of energy expansion.

There is always contrast
There is always a choice which way to face for

traitionally,
good or evil
light or darkness
heaven or hell
good or bad
fact is we each of us define where to stand
there is no such thing as sin
there is no such things as karma
it is all about cause and effect
based on power of attraction
but there is always events that make you feel bad exist.
tricky part is we cannot argue sins and wrong doing in order to enforce control on anyone
unfaithful control always fail

tricky part is we have to focus on the other contrast in order to create joyful life
joyful time is pieces of art
we do not have to be religious
we all are be creative artist