7/31/13

Asset distribution

bail out list of Christianity
 headwater forest reserve
 and the associated company
 my friend Greg-1M
  my friend's daughter  Tori-2M
 my friend John-1
my friend John Niskey-1M
 my friend  Bob-1
my friend Jenifer-1M
 my friend Lucas W.-1M
 My ex husband Cary-1M
 a group -my old friends that was in I.E.L.I.-2M
my family and relative-2M
  the computer, web site company,(server)-3M

the religious organization would have same as me upon successful management of life for my happiness and success-8M each
 (eight million  is what I desired)

the rest  goes to investing good and wealth of the country of United States
 America should have been received ten gold  in the year 2012,  please negotiate with the organization upon successful termination and management of the mind reading device.


United States government is fully responsible for this distribution and keep things in tact for safety of economy and fund management.at least this is my safety plan for this country and my fellow friends.
I am not a gambler.




  

bullshit activity and witness protection program that hide rape and sex horseshit??

first of all. the religious organization claiming I am the Christ that belong to them, is not my recognition or glory in no mean.  Christianity is losing business for animals.  I feel ashamed for it.  I don't like to be part of the organization.the m fixing  taking care after the  Jesus month of the religious activity is justified action and behavior that came too late, came  without significance or any effectiveness.  Its failed action and decision making.
Please don't make it look like for my benefit. It was my  life to begin with  It was my life that belong to my  soul and nobody else.  If any of you truly believed ownership of my soul, now I know why you needed my work and devotion.
 no one owns my life, my knowledge or my soul.not for sale or not for ownership


If "religion stop making anyone happy, stop providing help and assistance.
religion is meant to provide a way to happiness, guidance for happiness.  When not knowing what happiness is, What is whole meaning of being "religious"
I want entire  my asset retrieval and want to put ALL to US gov bond in long running of this country.
 It does not affect any economic activity. though people get to decide  to spend it for war or spend it for something else.  trillion dollar deficit is not going to disappear over a night.  stop making debt is first step.  spiritually, souls of Christian is very close to bankrupt as a human. be responsible for own life, own country.I  help recovering every process. If good intention of individual stop functioning in society and humanity,  its end of civilization. and beginning of survival war. that is chain of animal  lives.   what wild animal life  strive to live for
  More  this government collect my asset strict, I make a wish for further development of this country  financial and economically spiritually.  Please help saving the headwater forest to bailout my friend someday, too.
  at this point, there is not much to be recognized in this whole world other than being different unique and free.
 When anyone put me o the program to keep my life controlled out of public eyes? When  I own purely free will, my asset to be utilized.   that is gift to this country.
 tired of living threat and demand.
I will not have to see anyone that existed in my life any more, I do not have to care or worry anything that way.  you all are independent from Christianity. congratulations..
   my personal protection and my  prayer is with you.
 not much desire to take to animal any more
 farm animal should stay out of my garden my yard my house.
  I do not wish to be with the guy,kid rock  and I do not want to work with the guy. NEVER..there is kind of belief and people that ruin and damage without having true  understanding, with spiritual ignorance. I cannot engage anymore  Christianity gamble knowing its going to be miserable.  When and if he found his own point of spiritual maturity to the level of  where I am, please let me know. I am no baby sitter for grown up adult.  he is fully responsible for own recovery at the same time giving time and room of recovery for others.
 Devil exist in many form in Christianity
  one is persistence that is unproductive and miserable, disgraceful
  materialistic bondage that is based on money rather good intention or love
temptation for quick solution for façade and conceit,without true intention or significance.
  if you focus and put own power and dream in better way, this awareness could be utilized in dream pursuing power.  
making effort everyday with persistence pursuing better life with better income, pursuing financial abundance, holding on to dream without going astray work to fulfill own desire and dream.
  money is not bad thing, effective effort base, hands on persistence is not  bad thing,  keeping focusing success is not bad thing.  There are SO many hardworking  individual who know how to make good effort exist in this world. Is the world really rewarding those who is keeping this world safe and in tact for god of majority?
  Isn't this world set up  for losers, cheaters to be successful?
  or  is this the world only bad sports get rich and famous?
 I don't care because this is not my country and con artist exist  everywhere in this world, not just here.


there are so many issues  of life. religion is not  significant part of life.
  there are so much to care and love before "religion"
  I think everybody" losing" in this losing battle of Christianity survival.



stated above are the condition and my report about Christianity evaluation.eight million must be in my hands weather I am going to the program or not..
  raped couple of time for it not happy about it,  being treated as psychiatric patient when I am not ill crazy mentally, I am not happy about it.Just not happy about this Christianity craziness.

   If my going to the program help stop my arguing with the  CRAZY PEOPLE, I will consider going willingly .  don't expect my  opinion to be same as now or happy one and or even productive best bet is my brain refinement m creating . Jesus that speak someone;s wishes and desire.

  you all ruined my   happiness, possible abundance to  my life everything I could have enjoy as part of my life.
  cannot wish you well from my heart, but God bless you and mercy to all.hope you United States get ten fold bar I wanted to give you while I was in Japan imprisoned, yet wanted to give this country.



  Christianity is no good until each start taking responsibility of own life, own decision and own action.,
 government  is   not at fault making deficit.  individual that existed in this country was responsible..
  which one? we can waste our time and life just pointing each other for the rest of our life
 How does that life sounds to you?




























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7/23/13

message to Japan and Middle Eastern countries

先ず最初に言っておくことは、私を理容して、キッドロックの指揮、リーダーシップでの中東問題の解決は かけにはなっても、平和的解決にはならないということを理解してください。私個人的視点責任において、きっろロック本人の能力、リーダーシップ、責任能力、状況に応じた適宜な判断能力に門谷がありすぎて、信用と能力をを欠いたいることは明らか。 
プロジェクトを無理して成功したように見せかけるよりも、私の信じる,人、世界、サポートにかこまれた環境において、適宜 管理して成功に導いていく事を希望します。
自分たちで食べられない モノや政策を中東に売るのはもうやめるように。キッドロックも同様。彼のカードは正しくても、それをうまく人のために、彼以外の人、彼本人の利益以外のため、大衆に認められ、中東が支持を得られる方法で方法で物事が進まなければ、日本のためにも、中東地域のためにも、アメリカのためにもならないということを理解するように。これを一貫して理解、支持し、 互いに 節制しあいながら協力して状況を管理していくことが望まれるし、成功にはマスト条件です。私の生活環境を、安全で、政治的に安全で、快適なものに。経済的偏見からくる影響のないもの、個人的偏見やプレッシャー少ないものに整えてくれるように希望します。
  中東近辺の国へ、私が言えること、お願いすること知ってほしいことは その地域の、平和解決に向ける日本への期待、わたしへの期待は十分につたわってきているということ。 ただ、私の意思、リーダーシップが私の期待するように有効な状況が、あの宗教活動の 残り火で まだありえないということ。 まずは私の生活の安定と、私の意思が生きられるような環境に身をおく地うことが 第一条件です。私の存在が、この地球から抹消された時点で、私の意思が 個人の判断で書き換えられ、消えさられることの危険があることを認識してほしい。私の意思は生きなければならないし、私の存在も、安全に守られながら、生き続くものにするために今の混乱が存在していることを理解してほしい。
  キッドロックは私のライフマネージメントを任せるのには不適です。
其の判断をきちんとさせてくれた人々に感謝はしますが、それに気付くまでの後始末に 時間がかかっているということ。人の行為はかえられても、信心、行動パターンは変わらないというのがわたしのしてんです。私の判断が生きるような環境、良い意図や成功が問題の数だけ目にみえるような環境を希望してます。


I hope that middle eastern countries support my country 's effort trying to bring things to fruition.

There are so many unproductive matters in my life environment that prevent me from   success, On  successful accomplishment on every level, hope my country receive appropriate support fort  their economy and  wis h for the support to my life environment.


 


7/22/13

Christianity miracles

If you don't see it
you are missing out of the miracles
 It does exist
 work of Angels
  here and there
 over the decades
 over the sea
  If you don't know it
 you are about to start seeing things
It does exist
  art of the miracles
over a night
  nothing is created
 many nights and days
  It sprout   on the corner of your eyes
  Someday
 you find it at surprise
 it blossom
 out of expectation
 you find  it where grace lies
 It always grow for more
 it always glow for more
 light as it is
 If you don't see it
 you are missing out out of life

work of Angels
  frequent flier of the sky
fire sparkles of the summer sky
happy independence day
 Happy birthday
 to you all
be a happy babies for me
 love of trine
  Enjoy the blessing



7/21/13

Dear Islam countries

I wantt you all to decide the  fate of Christianity. remember to keep food supply in your mind.  and you all have my spiritual support.  tired of talking, writing  to cats and dogs.
  Christianity should stay out of good region, spiritual place you live

 Could you you manage the dissolution of the Israel for me? Because I cannot be there and  all I got here is shitty. nothing spiritual..  all bankers and investor. they are lovable, but not really  for my spiritual work for that regions. cuz you all got so much money than any other part of the world.

I know you don't want any more poop of the Christianity
 It's all about stealing and  raping.becoming close to end of the world. SURE.
 So here is my proclamation...be independent.
I am sure its possible to survive without Israel for you and for me.
 Addendum of July


I want English Astrologer, Mr. Johnathan Cainer to take leadership of the management regarding dissolution of Israel.
Kid rock is responsible to transfer fund and asst which he received from middle Eastern countries to him immediately.


I want him to pic a day to form a team andplan and  start this project and initiate meeting which involvesthe team, band of brothers, HAMAsS and other leaders of  Islam  countries who wish to be involved in this dissolution process.
  the dissolution, goal date is  stated in other posting. To achieve my goal effectiveness and productivity, I would like Mr.Jonathan Cainer  to take initiative of my involvement directly and indirectly.  
I believe more in Astrology than personal  tarot card reading.more than anything, I believe   professionalism of Johnathan Cainer.  His reading is accurate compassionate and realistic and spiritual. I hope everybody something from this entire process of our dream coming true.
  
I hope he manages for success for us all.  I hope America manage devils that exist in my life environment better and and more strict yet disciplined  manners.
  Ilearn more about Astrology.  I am hoping  Jonathan and I can work together..I need his knowledge, and we need  successful leadership and management.














1 about the role as Jesus Christ
2  dissolution of state/ country of Israel
3  My personal life, asset managementand retrieval
 4 Management of the use mind reading device especially  of humans





1 role as Jesus Christ(avatar)

From this day of July 21, 2013,four issues stated above needed to be,and would be  dealed with plan  with  executions all at the same time currently. and all must start taking place at the same time.


2  dissolution of state/ country of Israel
 I appoint Kid rock to manage Political issues regarding dissolution of the state/ country of Israel. this tentative yet targeted  completion date at this moment is March 6 2019(  this to be initiated and completed during Uranus stay  in the house of Aries, before moving into next house of Taurus)

from today to the same day year 2015,  Kid rock, and Japanese government and US government will take initiative on dissolution of Israel. I will endorse his work and their corporations.   each party is responsible to carry out  this project successfully peacefully.  and When   they identify immediate intervention of my initiative and responsibility,  they are  required to take action  to let me know for the further  involvement.



condition and management principle

The Catholic organization, US government  are responsible for financial security, physical security of his family and his life itself during this project is in the move.  his independent work would be  be assured and all parties  are responsible to comply and management for  his reasonable directions and orders.

The Catholic  organization ,US government  are fully responsible to make sure my independent living financially spiritually (most importantly politically in this matter).
Please be safety minded.

The entire asset he took must be restored into my possession ASAP.
 my asset would be utilized for improving US economy and  my life enrichment and my spiritual work, philanthropic aspect of life activity.

stated  above is possible for re-justification

I cannot be responsible for failure so Kidrock.  the catholic organization are fired.


4 Mind reading device and the technology management and termination

termination and management of the mind reading device will be completed defectively completely.
This   will be enforced  to the country of  Japan, United States,and  other countries that have access to the use of device, (most importantly ,access to my mind and thought)

 Principle of this condition  and management

My friend John and  Greg and others  will be responsible and will be part of  mind reading device management by working with United States government and Japanese government, individuals and  other  agencies that are involved for  this device technology.
 United States government and Japanese government, my friends, Greg, John and others and all the individuals who  have access to the mind reading device technology must assure to stop using, applying the device to human altogether and will be responsible for the management and  terminations as much as  use of the device technology  effectively completely.

My ideal and goal is the use of this technology to be terminated entirely in peaceful  yet effectively completely as soon as possible.

The termination of the use,termination of all the  access to the "thought",( my thought,my mind, my device in general) will be practiced gradually naturally effectively in order to avoid possible confusion and complications.   this could be done with or without prior  notice for safety  of my life and/  or safety of public.




7/20/13

My religious Proclamation

1 about the role as Jesus Christ
2  dissolution of state/ country of Israel
3  My personal life, asset managementand retrieval
 4 Management of the use mind reading device especially  of humans





1 role as Jesus Christ(avatar)

From this day of July 20, 2013,four issues stated above needed to be,and would be  dealed with plan  with  executions all at the same time currently. and all must start taking place at the same time.


2  dissolution of state/ country of Israel
 I appoint Kid rock to manage Political issues regarding dissolution of the state/ country of Israel. this tentative yet targeted  completion date at this moment is March 6 2019(  this to be initiated and completed during Uranus stay  in the house of Aries, before moving into next house of Taurus)

Principle of this condition  and management



3 Personal life, asset management
 


I appoint my friend Greg to manage my asset retrieval and justification as I stated yesterday.compensation to him personaly is as stated and chosen organization/ institution he decide to work with will receive appropriate compensation as I communicated with my friend Greg.  and he will be responsible for my domestic life management.
he will be involved for this issue management in my behalf and the catholic organization will be responsible for his life financially and his family's financial life to be sustainable  as long as he is engaging this task and the management.

Principle of this condition  and management
Greg will perform  his role independently   
his life security and  independent initiative to be protected consciously unconsciously by all the agency that are involved to my life and religious aspect work  of my life.
Until my friend Greg he take action for this Justification, other two other  issues cannot start taking place 
4 Mind reading device and the technology management and termination

termination and management of the mind reading device will be completed defectively completely.
This   will be enforced  to the country of  Japan, United States,and  other countries that have access to the use of device, (most importantly ,access to my mind and thought)

 Principle of this condition  and management

My friend Greg  will be responsible and will be part of  mind reading device management by working with United States government and  individuals and  other  agencies that are involved for  this device technology.
 United States government and Japanese government, my friends, Greg and all the individuals who  have access to the mind reading device technology must assure to stop using, applying the device to human altogether and will be responsible for the management and  terminations as much as  use of the device technology  effectively completely.

My ideal and goal is the use of this technology to be terminated entirely in peaceful  yet effectively completely as soon as possible.

The termination of the use,termination of all the  access to the "thought",( my thought,my mind, my device in general) will be practiced gradually naturally effectively in order to avoid possible confusion and complications.   this could be done with or without prior  notice for safety  of my life and/  or safety of public.




I would like to make change posted above. will be up date by the end of mid night tomorrow.







dream

color of clouds
rain colored my eyes
summer breeze to my cheek
comfort to my heart
 I seek
just wish  to be your sunshine
to your eyes
to your heart
every morning
every day
every night
on my bed of clouds
that I sleep

dancing with wolves
one with silver moonlight
wearing white socks
with the moon light
wearing breeze of Great planes
over the Canyons
moon dances with wolves
for the shadow of the Canyons
one sing along to their fathers
one sing a song with wind
that belong to their mothers
 wearing heart under their dark hair
one daces with history of the pain

blessed by the soil
never flow under the water
stream assured direction of water


stream assured direction of the map
reading the darkened sky
reading breeze through the history

for their land
for their child
for their blood
that soaked on this ground earth
it dances
it moves
like wind
like  stream
catching the moment
that dances
over full moon
that shines
over the Great Planes
over the decades
over the centuries
under this moonlight





7/19/13

conclusion to the religious activity

Here is my decision about following issue and should take effect immediately for best outcome of things.


1 my writings, blog asset management

2 Green card issuance over this religious activity

3 religious/ spiritual issue/political issues


1. my writings, blog asset management

First of all, My friend Greg( or his appointed legal profession) must file my copyright of my blog writing with United States government agency in a way  that is good and effective internationally.
Along with accomplishment, he start preparing the report of my entire asset and list of the records to United States government. He is responsible for accuracy and will be responsible to follow the preexisting  law of United States  financially. He is require to report the financial transaction report to the United States government and create entire report and the summery.within the report, personal identities to be entirely Initials of the  names and  abbreviations of the  institutions.

Unite States is responsible to publish the summery for the benefit of the public view making it accessible in most effective way to conclude the religious activity.
based on the transaction data collection of the asset, financial product, monetary asset must  become my possession, under my  name.(both invisible credit and debt to others)
  my friend Greg  justify odds and end of the financial reality between how it was and how financial asset actually spent and utilized.
For this role,  he is entitled to keep one million dollars for performing this role  from my asset that is resulted from my  blog as his compensation.
he is responsible and required to have whole vision/ process for the completion.
 the third party financial agencies, have to and expected to support his role. He must have practical plan and responsible for execution. the  plan and possible perspectives and process must be observed and assured by governmental agency for accuracy and for his liability..
As he keep performing this role, he is required to provide adequate financial security and access to my life. He is responsible  to provide everything which I could have own and have access to.  which means he has to provide access and  financial security based on what I could have in my hands.
this means, when he decide to  make credit cards for me,he would have to  put real possibble numbers as my asset to the application  even before his justification process is over. at the same time utilizing  creating access to the cash and credit.

 His life needed to be protected and secured for this role for independent manner and for security without personal threat or manipulation. He should receive support and security protection from governmental agencies both consciously and unconsciously.


Within the asset, everything that stayed liquid, or financial product  must be calculated and justified and will be transferred.
 whoever invested or spend voluntarily for my life and life of family will receive  what spent   but no more than what it was at the cash value of the monetary value.  Greg is responsible to check accuracy and to   make sure the legitimacy of the financial (bank) records.


Within the asset withdrawn or taken, Greg is responsible to make it my possession.putting it under my name legally and financially.
If lawsuits were to be reasonable or required, Any resulted legal fee, cost for a group of attorney for acquisition  will be  paid out of the asset.  every process should become public records and the group of attorney are responsible to utilize my financial right,and  my copyright.  make the record   visible or accessible to the public,making it possible to be confirmed by public is favorable but not necessary
 Greg is responsible to keep all the records of the fees and the process in tact and make sure the payment and utilization. he is responsible for accuracy and effectiveness to carry on timely manner and its  completions. (tentative deadline, due date for the completion is  Dec 25,2013)
While  he takes this role and until the completion, he is responsible for my life personally and  financially. ad it can extend  as long as it takes.

2 Green cards issue.

  For the Japanese who have resided longer than six month within Humboldt county( ref;, the Japanese people who are certified by the Japanese gov in the county), those who can prove residency, certification from them would receive Green cards to stay in United States legally. Those who wish to acquire based on the exceptional religious activity reason, they need to be assure that they will not become public debt in this country,( which mean they cannot receive public welfare or low income medical benefit  unless(until) they become citizen of this country. meaning of the public debt is stated and explained  better in USCIS websites)   each individual is solely responsible for management of  their own lives.  That is only condition I need United States government to be firm about. upon violation of  the Green cards receivers, United States  will have right to  refuse legitimacy of the green cards immediately and permanently.

3  Religious Spiritual/ Political  issue

The Catholic organization, who initiated the religious activity is responsible for the entire damage that is caused by the activity.
 If there is lawsuits regarding   financial, personal loss of the physical damage, the catholic church  is   required to pay the requested cost. financial,physical aspect of life  damage must be compensated monetary totally. emotional,spiritual damage caused by the distress  to be eliminated from the "damages".   When the entire fund of church is slashed in half from the moment of the year 2010,  the United States  can intervene for modification: and move to second segment of the justification period where negotiation and argument could be practiced. the church is allowed  to make argument and negotiation with legal Representatives on their side for the Second segment. For the entire lawsuits of First segment period,  Gag order for both United States government Court and those who wish to make  claim will be enforced. Second half of the period, this gag order will be eliminated,.legal fee will be paid by individual who wish to make a claims.
 United States court is responsible to make sure accuracy of  financial record of church both nationally and internationally in order to call the  beginning of the Second segment.  United States  government is  responsible to call for the transition, to the Second segment of this justification process.  this moment will be publicly announced to the court systems.


Basic principle
1 For any loss of life during this religious activity, one million US dollars per person( one million dollars compensation  for the one lost life) to the family  to be enforced.  the family who lost family member should receive one million dollars from the catholic organization for minimum distress in this   legal justification process.
I  would like the family who lost loved one to know that there is not enough compensation for the life lost.asking my forgiveness being helpless at the  time being and wish those family find peace and love in their recovery with this process.
I hope and would like to request United States government to be sensitive for the legal fees and the justification process to be compassionate one for this legal process  by providing direct solution,directions and understandable process for all of those families.

For first segment of the justification,issues for the   loss of lives is priority and must be prioritized within entire process of things described here.

For the damages of tangible asset, those who wish to seek compensation are required to submit detailed list of damage report to the court   for the claims, argument and negotiations.
















7/18/13

station

every morning
I wait for the train
 every night
 I made  dream out of air
 every morning
 being out for the cold air
 just to live a day
every evening
 being out of energy
 just to survive the night
 every time
 looking around
 apathy filled  the room
 time coming to  home
 time to lose ther mind
 blewn by the destiny
grasping air in hands
 helpless beach await
 coke to my thirst
 taste of survival
breeze to my throat
 taste of freedom
 Its been three years
 since the  Earth day
 I chose to live
 since the day
I live the change
 since
 Mercury is in the water
 waves splash to my cheek
since Venus in on fire
I live this moment on fret
 on this ship
in this storm
that is filled by tear
that is filled with needled emotions
 Mercury knows
   station is
 bitchy place
 as cold as the morning
station is
 bitchy place to be
waiting for tomorrow
await for the messenger
 to come


Help me greg.

dear greg
 if I ask you to be with me all the time, everyday and decide to  do the religious work as part  time.  What would you think about this idea?I want to be happy to engage this kind of work and process all the time.
I want to be responsible for my own  happiness first. I need you for it.  If you decide to stay with me, I will do my work. please keep my life environment safe and set up things for success and security.
 I want that guy to be out of my picture for now. will deal with this issue later if necessary.

I am woman and there is limitation in belief of people.  Man still dominate our society and more believable. I hate to push the boundary of belief of people.but if you help me,I might be able to work more putting real effort.
 I will keep engaging the effort, but I would like to focus on my personal desire  and people interaction,,success,philanthropic issues rather political, religious issue and the  management
 Would you stay with me?
  I need plan to travel and means, safe  environment, to meet people. More than anything, I need  safe work environment with you.

Sorry no matter how I try, I cannot be a christian in conventional terms
.I am counting on you.
This is  an image I found. this constellation really belong to winter,but
 Hope to see many stars in the regions.







  ready to make a trip?  at the same time  doing keep going routine spiritual journey?
  I want to work for success.
you taught me one day at a time, maybe I have something good  to put it work.
  Lets see how much I could do. we made billions so far together
as a result I made my book  without intention of manipulation or deception, hurting people in no  way.  You just let me be who I am.
This time,Its not money making business, but hope you stay with me. Hope people in the regions like me, hope not only Christians,people  support me and my desire, my intentions for success.


Peace :)








dear greg

Here is my message to the religious organization how to end their religious activity safely and in tact  for the world and for themselves and mine.

There is several issues regarding how to conclude their activity
 One is financial issue,  my life management issue and issue regarding Christians in general who believe in Jesus Christ and church itself.
 I want to conclude in  some continuity  with some new changes in general.

For financial issue, I think and believe that they are fully responsible for their investor relations and that issue should NOT affect my life management period.  it means their pressure should not affect their judgement managing how things should be, should have been.that includes my life management, of life of of John,or life of Kid rock. 
I want  people who ended up in inferior position in society to be protected financially and socially. that includes my family, family of kid rock and family of John and your family and  my friends your friends in general.  just because I cannot be responsible for things that happened out of my sight. I want them to be sensitive to manage the issue for continual support both spiritually and financially.
For my life management issue, I would like to choose my life environment how to work and how things to beat most. My request is  simple and manageable.My political stands should be neutral,  and physical location to be managed and protected for safety consciously by someone and  with someone consciously directly.
My life environment should  be neutral in  advisory and direction, general news, social interaction,  information to be practical and less biased is desired.
the way things were worked, but hopefully less parental control feature unless there is significant reason to do so.  I want my judgement o be realistic, based on fact and how things are,I cannot make good judgement out of  things that is made out   or that is  crafted   for reality manipulation. I want to decide legitimacy and message of significance of each news and event  as it is presented in normal way.
I need  people who can give me normal sense of life environment. and person or  people who can manage MY WORLDLY ASPECT OF FINANCIAL LIFE as needed  is very important
.  my standard of living, is harder to define for me, but I need security in finances and practical tool and access to my fund and utilities such as vehicle, air way,  transportation, general spending  in general.  and safety to my action and my password security  to be managed and protected consciously.so I can make decision based on social climate and  how things are based on the practical advice.  So I would not end up in war zone or make impractical move just because cards turned to be the time, but reality is not corresponding for my safety?, I need good advice, advisory and management for how to make things happen effectively  for vest outcome

I wish and hope to be my life environment  to be separated from my family and relatives in normal circumstances.  Just because there are many political, financial conflict  within my family and I know that I just cannot fulfill their entire favors, expectations and orders like wish, everything   they received money for or everything they received privilege or special treatment  for.  
My life needed to be independent from my family. I hope to have understanding in this matter. I want them to be well supplied and protected, but I have limitation knowing their life style and beliefs.
I  personaly hope and with my friend greg to be  directly involving my life management tentatively to start.  just because many unexpected issue and event  cause me such distress and distrust,. I would like quickest recovery environment and at the same time, his burden and responsibilities to be limited and manageable as whole.  the schedule should be extendable and he should be able to tell me what is limit in his part after we both made arrangement. For further arrangement myself and greg, both should agree for the justification and should carry on by going through test and see process together. At this point, I trust his judgement and I believe he could provide and help  me  financial management, scheduling things to keep   my life in tact for my work. making my worldly, spiritually  needs  in tact and met.  I  want him to be paid for his commitment and work if thatt is appropriate from the church., but I want him to be independent in his opinion and my life management at the same time.  


 Just because my personal issue and belief, I hope sexual issue to be eliminated or set aside totally unless I  request it consciously verbally to the person tiredly. Platonic, nonsexual friendship or meeting, encounters are all welcomed and  I have  no hesitation on the selections of the people to meet.   Hope he manage  my schedule and safe environment for me  to converse with others. this principle goes for my online environment and security as well.

   The issue regarding family of Kid rock and kid rock himself, I have complicated feeling at this point not knowing his true desire.
First of all,to create choice to his life is  my concern.  Just because of  the religious activity and aong with some other management, the damage to his career is prominent and I want him to have recovered outlook socially and career wise, and  then , I want him to decide how much  he really want to be part of my spiritual work and role.
  Until this is done, the  organization should guarantee his and his life's financial responsibilities to be met. so their lives would be   sustained at equal, same or better  financialy  almost same as before the activity took place.   At this point, there is no near to the point he could make sound judgement and choice.  Organization should provide all the opportunity to make his social outlook to be recovered and to be normal like before.

My financial issue, if I could not retrieve my own earning that is resulted from  my writing on the blog, I want organization to secure one million dollar for my life management tentatively and I want greg to be  the one who manage the asset to start.I want him to create access to the asset and guide me how to utilize.  what I want and desire is eight  of entire blog asset and this will be part of first M installment of retrieval.  My asset scattered everywhere within family, company, and in the hands of Kidrock, I hope the organization manage the retrieval and at the same time, make smooth transition  as they, we   work with them. I will work with copyright issue willingly, so most changes could be limited or manageable. Further income to be managed altogether and I will make financial contribution to the organization as necessary andfor my gratitude for the effective work if I find it appropriate with my conscious decision. The fund Kidrock is holding, I have plan and desire,how to utilize. I hope he keep it in tact with better management financially. in case he decide to work with me,we work together then when time is right. if he chose not to, I need the entire asset back into my possession.(in this case, (copyright issue could be an issue, but I see little of the possibility, hope we could work out in this)if he decided not to work, the organization should  deducted from what organization spend and supported his life and his family's finances,which took and cost  until he  can safely work and perform normally.

Politically,I would like to deal with each individual country such as Japan, US, and others independently.  but  for  my life management, I want Japanese government to be accessible  for  my timely needs through greg.  maybe US could do the same through greg. but I would like to directly manage possible issue  the time to time and situation to situation.  that is my most favorable principle.

Finally, to conclude the religious activity, I would like to create U tube movie for my website and for the amortization's site.  
  The purpose of that is to show  and summarize the process and the accomplishment to public  in symbolic way.
  During  the time Astrologically the sky  form water grand trine, during the  limited time and hope to put things together.
 the video should show meeting with Organization official( anonymously or with identifiable way) and myself, greg and my friend John and Kidrock to be the one  who invite people. this 
meeting should be  a day  eventat most or even a few hours. we gather and make a toast,   and   top of the official, organization, myself, John,greg, Kidrock will introduce each other in the gathering and will make a little prayer, each may    have opportunity to say something  before  the meeting ends.  
this meeting will be invitation only. and organization, John, greg, and Kidrock will manage the list of the guest and they are   responsible for the set up, and responsible  to get consent to be in the movie. and they will have option to be edited out in the movie or not if its appropriate this will be shown to public  with consent and editing arrangement according to the consent.
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witness protection or program or  that is similar to my life arrangement need to be ON HOLD at this point
At least until things, all the aspect of the significance started become meaningful.  after my life arrangement  is secured,they should start working toward perfection and completion. of my life need, program's needs, meaning do not comply each other at this point.
 to go to program by death or alive is one issue and there is no significant diference  in both situations. the  management  should show ineffectiveness,then my life should make transition and changes  time to time.  at this moment, I see and consider the significance taking rush  action  is  not appropriate,or has no point doing it at all  yet  we should have a way to move things forward productively al same time.
 utilizing the program intention     taking time and effort make more sense
   I need to  have tentative yet immediate  arrangement first with possibility of altering some things. I want this arrangement  to  be an opportunity, identifying needs. with the  possibilities that   could be transformed to real one with improvement. After all this, then take action seems to be  .most desirable and make a lot of sense.


Please know and understand the fact
 THAT MY THOUGHT is NOT the same as what I said or  what I believe entirely.


look forward to meeting with you all.  Hopefully, this time be successful with good intention. and don't forget to invite me in. to the meeting

Sincerely,

So muchsecrets  have uncovered as truth andas   issues.  All described here  be under clarification process and refinement.






 

7/17/13

when and where

When Justice serves no one
 thats when everybody's sinner
 thats where  reason why do not matter
 When Justice don't serve no one
 where people find what really matters
 When there is no difference
 in belief and style
 in life
in death
 When there is nothing to pursue,
 there is no meaning
 Justice is reward for those who know goodness of life
 Justice is nothing for those who do not know anything good about life
Where fairness exist
 there is weak one  and strong one
 Where there is beauty and grace
 there is  courtesy of life
 there is compassion of life
 Justification
 is work of  God
 modification
is work of Angels

in the attempt of making you understand
 in the attempt of making you earn

water flow higher to lower
  its natural law
  not merely gravity
  nature of water
 fluidity
nature of water
 that fits  size of heart
  that fits shape of heart

when you start seeing world from top of  the mountain
you never see the  water at the end of  the river.

 as you sleep, you leap through the dimension
 you taste every edge of the water
 you fly over the fog
 you fly  over the clouds
  its pure
 its  crisp cool
   depend on your temperature of your body
 you feel
 relief
 you feel the thirst satisfied
 you would feel   numbed repetition
in  the reality
  nothing to blame
 but want you to know
 water is water
 nothing more
 nothing less
  so is money
nothing more
 nothing less
 every edge of knowing,
 there is pot of gold
 every edge of the earth
 there is finding of truth

I do not expect all to be " spiritual" over a night
 but want you to know
 holding onto something,
 If you decide  to do,
 hold on to  something good
 hold on to something you can believe naturally
 effortless
  helpless
 work of love

nothing to force
 here and there
 My love is real
 My love will always be
 real
 nothing to force
 nothing  to make it work
 choice is mine
 choice is yours.
 work of love
 work of art
 that's life of humanity
 Please don't blame me for helping saving the life of Jesus
 It was  my choice
   will take it from there
 to here an there
 I am  not Jesus Christ
 to live life of mine, I exist as Christ.
 blessed by water
 blessed by fire
 I live the love everyday
 hope you are with me
 both mind and soul
 that exist in our hands.
  that I am not defined by sex or
anything that can be defined  by human
that's who I am.
 nothing to win
 nothing to lose
 I am with you all
 he is with you all
 for many reason that exist on earth
 pureness
 of the sound


















Angel bells

angel sing a  song of love
 over the rainbow
 angel sing a song of  life
 over the rainbow
 not sure which clouds to jump on
 angel bounce higher
 angel jumped higher
not  sure the purpose
 when there is no purpose
 just angel sing a song along with the wind
 just angel jump off the cliff along with the mountain
winged fickle creatures
  not sure  why
 they hold my wings
 for the rest
 for the flight
  singing a song of fear
 I stay and walk the ground
  above the clouds
 I walk with the angels
   singing a song of love
 I walk  on the clouds
 just walk bouncing on and off the clouds
 our play that last thousand years
 bell goes on ringing
 I just walk on the clouds


pic image from NASA "clouds of Jupiter"

7/8/13

five of cup issue

What is more believable?
a few years ago, my friends asked me a lot of favors
 What   was best things to do for me and for them?
I knew my friends betrayed me, but wanted to forgive them
 they asked for it , and wanted to give to them
 I wanted to let go and forget and heal
I shouted out "I forgive you"
 and no one liked it
 no one believed it
  they shouted out" not enough"
 no one believed what is happening
  fact was I didn't know what to forgive who to provide my forgiveness for

 
What is more believable?
What is best way to bring healing and forgiveness

 When it comes down to,
   let it go
let things be
 helped
 not in negligence
 but in self healing with good intention of caring and protecting
 Just because  if its real, you will know and see it they deserve to be forgiven

not in loud words or in huge deed,
 but you will see the every small intention of the regret and caring for better

for solution and solution

When I started forgetting the pain, healing is almost done

When  everybody started finding peace in their heart, the healing is almost done or can start healing itself any time

When its done, there is no need for me to tell them""forgive you"/ I forgave you"


Hope comes out from repetition of thought that  seeks solution and resolution.

Not to change whole things at once.
 but Just to start taking right, good step toward productive direction.
  that's beginning of healing and hoping.








7/6/13

Dear people who want me to be successful

United States government, Japanese government, and the organization, I need all of you to do your best to retrieve my asset that was resulted from my blog. that was collected from all over the world for,  me to be successful.
 I know that first half of the  asset are spent on my family and friend.
  I don't bother to know what had happened.
the Second half, my friends( never seen the guy, but Google loved him) took and holding. That fund got to be under my management.
  those are my resources for my work and I have plan with the money. not to buy toy, sex or buy anything  that last few decades. I need the fund for my spiritual work and people relations that last longer than our lives.

I hope you all  put real effort retrieving  the fund and put it  under my friends(Greg)'s management or organization's management, so I can directly   utilize it or have it   for greater good.
 all the help and assistance be appreciated.



 thank you


PS
 for my spiritual work, my environment must be English spoken for indescribable reasons.
  Not many message  comes in my own primary Language. English spoken environment must be my  work environment.
Hopefully  I be safe and protected well.


thanks



7/5/13

So here I am

everybody playing Indian casino.? Poker, black Jack, slot machine and Bingo!!
  the destination is where I can work and get my freedom back.
 Not all the freedom. what s left in my life.
 a little bit of money after making billions for others.
 and the organizations insist that, to get my life protection, I have to be sex decoy for people with money.
  Sure "its spiritual reason.
  My message to you all is OVER my dead body". and this mean, when I am truly dead. not the kind of fake dead last Jesus played and "managed"
Sure history repeat itself.
 the thesis of this religious drama is NOT to repeat the same mistake.
  I hope and pray to my God that everybody who fucked me in last orgy get cursed next two thousand years.
  I didn't see the faces. I cannot forgive you or give you another chance to do it right.  Good luck with it.

and so it goes.
 more and more people live in tournament.  Catholics live for forgiveness, Jewish live for tournament. that was simplistic  expression I got in some movie.
I have nothing against people who are Jewish.  they are rather good people to me most of the time.
  bit uncomfortable sometimes, but mostly good.
  My goal and object is to resolve issues which happened two thousand years ago, and during the past  World Wars.  Hitler was Jewish  man and successfully created state of Israel out of cost of other Jewish people?for the lives and asset.  it was made out of "interference" created by the  massacre,horocoast.
 what does this mean? the idea first ? or money (fund)had come first?


love is love. I protect people I like whether they did make mistake or not.
Just because when I see them in the eyes. I see some clouds and some clear vision of reality.

Hit and runner should not be in my life.nothing to give, nothing to protect for and from.

will love you for the amount of   faith you have  in your heart.


to lead me to the protection, the orgy has to happened sort of mentality is  like the cause and effect of Hitler finding and killing Jewish people.

 It just DO NOT MAKE SENSE!!!!


I hope same group of people who STOPPED the  Horocoast,  World wide after the wars recession
Its .time to finish, time to  end the "religious extravaganza party of "TEMPERANCE"
 everybody lost it. everybody still losing their mind? still keep stealing my asset. both idea and money.


Jewish people did  not do anything wrong.darn sure they did not have good realistic  reason to be killed. there were no need to be "temperance" about other than psychological  war fare. got ta kill got ta steal, gottta survive,gotta have sex, gotta have money than anybody else, are you still living the time of such  mentality?


I am not the one wearing remark on my arms to hail Hitler...




what if Hitler himself really was lovely man? who was "high" on spiritual hiatus and got carried away for sex , money and power game. making billions, providing spiritual "high" and satisfaction.




sounds familiar??










7/3/13

Promise

you promised me not to repeat the same mistake again
 you promised me this time be different
you stole the excuse away
  wish knew what Jesus really wanted and what he was thinking
 could have been  a whole new world
  wish they knew what he intend to do
This time God took the excuse away
 "I didn't know"
  you all know  what Christ wanted and needed
  still could not bring world that is filled with joy and promises
you promised me not to ruin another chance to do it right
 to make  our dream come true
you promised me this time be different
 everybody know what it wanted
 everybody received money
  everybody betrayed one form or another each other
 Promise is promise
 It was my money to begin with
my asset to begin with
my debt to begin with
 everybody must be happy with what each got
 some deceived spiritual hiatus
 some received no love
some received abundance
  some received recognition
 some received debt
some took over chains of responsibilities
 some took opportunity
some took advantage  of someone
some took chance
 some took break from life
 some took money
 some took vacation
 Just to see how it feel

So how does it feel now?
 promise to bring change to the world
promise to bring end to the world
 everybody played same music
 everybody played same role
 our life goes on
 house of Pisces
  house of Christianity
a fish out of water..
that is you and me
 nature of Christianity newly defined
:Hallelujah
Merry Christmas to you all











7/1/13

incognito

when Sun goes down
  stroke of clouds float in the air
 incognito
 no one knows what it is
 looks like colored by the Sunlight
 looks like reflection of the sunlight
 looks like part of the universe
looks like clothes you were for a day
  looks like
something visible
looks like
something invisible
clouds hold no desire
 cloud hold no dream
  clouds  are puzzle
 we used to play
 clouds hold no regret
 clouds hold no  smile
 clouds only hold hint of tear
  your feet under neath
  eyes looking up
 ears towards me
 nature of clouds
  incognito?

trying to catch you within my hands
 you tell me I had it
  trying to  feel you within my hands
 you tell me I had it
 the moment
 we thought and dreamed
 we could ride the clouds over the windy storm
 we could swim  through clouds over the Sunset
 we could run through the clouds  holding desire
my creation
  was on your hands
 to be hold in the cloudy sky
my expectation
was on that day
 to find possibilities for the change
 the day I took the huge leap
 with you
 you are always incognito
you were always incognito
 until I cry out for you
until  I suffer  thirst for you
 your name is incognito