Wake Up call

I tend to be all or nothing  when engaging particular activity. More  I care, the tendency seems to get exaggerated.  Having perfectly calm peaceful day, made me realized something I used to love and adore without any doubt without any fear or worry.  Felt such appreciation and wanted to apologize that it took so long for me  to realize something simple as a t long.  I really am very  lucky woman just being able to be here and breathing. It was my realization today having a small Wake Up call of my own.


I have been bitter and my days were filled with resentment and honestly still do feel  some fear about things regarding Japan a little, but I am better today.
 If and when country of Japan realizes their mistake and started making changes by  waking self up, I wish many countries and people support the effort and its recovery.( I could not say that before  honestly and it is still a little hard for me to say,but here is my effort )
After all,everyone makes  some kind of mistake in life.

If anyone seeks support to be better, I  hope I could be the one to offer that support myself someday,too.
I was so hurt that I started even doubting best thing happened in my life even.  What I want is to  live life,to share good things about life with people I love and I care.  Please forgive my bitter expressions which could have been better and gentle if I were more mature and thoughtful.





thank you so much for putting up with me, keep supporting, helping me

Christianity decision

Christianity decision


First of all, I would like to tell you that conscious decision is very important.  After learning the answer, keep making same mistake were to be part of Christianity core, please don't expect anything out of me.

I realized that my only conscious decision was to trust my friends.   I believed they are on my side.  And the next conscious decision was to change "destroy" Christianity to "change" the Christianity  Major  conscious and unconscious decision,I made was    to help a guy. It really was a beginning of my Christianity journey.
He  was in life  big trouble and pain, being so torn and  hurt by the news of accident of family, my intuition  wasn't that sharp in  2007,  yet I saw his family and or friends tricked him into legal marriage in order to save one  family, and infant life he claimed it was his, I decided to stay in his life when, in case  he needs help especially when  he find out the baby might not be his.  I tried to get out of the relationship many times,yet it was such  tag of war every time I attempted to be out.  It was because happened to be right after I prayed to God(god) appreciating saving my life from illness, and declared that  if I see someone in trouble, I would do "anything" to help.  Who would know my prayer was listened unless there was many hidden camera and bugs in my apt?( I am kidding here) it was just too weird "coincidence"for sure.

I learned a lot about "Christianity" this year especially when someone changed the word " Greg" into "Craig" on my web search.

not sure.what is list thing about? no one really explained that to me.I am here not to encourage reading too much into bible,so I have been in such a trouble.  And I feel many Christian took advantage of my faithful nature imposing this living environment for long.  Please stop that.  If its based on my conscious decision, I would like to help you ALL.

What I know is that this my living environment does not allow me to make conscious decision of my own much knowing things when I do want to
In case you all care what  I choose, here is my conscious answer:

If anyone designed this my living environment "consciously" playing God on me? whether,a person or an organization? they should declare they are the guy and please  leave me alone.If that is the case, they are the first one to be eliminated from my world. restore everything they stole and took away from me and leave me alone.
I have been taking such pain living this life. I know that my info were all over online or other media both clothed or naked.(maybe) And I am a woman who feel depressed when raping takes place on me or anyone, yet many think I am tough enough like man of Jesus to put up such torture?
I know and feel that way every day  despite the gag order in the community I live.  I know that gag order is to  protect whoever ruined my right as human, who distributed the image and things. from the cameras and bugs planted in my apartment and outside are supposed to be my "paranoia" and everybody knows me everywhere because of my "paranoia" so no one have to believe what I say and write.  All of these put me in such uncomfortable life environment and making me so distrustful about people,yet they want me to be the one who is crazy and wrong so they can manipulate me and God? in old better method of Christianity?

whoever saw that and felt justified believing I deserved this living condition, those should be next to be out of my world.  Yes those Japanese  who believed that strongly, I am talking about you here


For the rest,I have no name to collect  or distribute any "free stuff"other than contents on this blog  but I am giving the answer and if you understand the intention and real meaning,I think you are already "in"
It really is autopilot by non physicals.  I don't get to say much and I am not happy with both.
angels did not take human forms, and the manifestation takes humans form? not sure.  It always takes non physical form  guiding us each.  Surely based on conscious decision, ANYONE can act like or behave,and even live like an angel if choose to do so by the conscious and, unconscious decision,but I know that most would not do that. It is hard. it is not easy  to do the right thing yet we all could do our best time to time.  That is where real blessing lies.
So here is second chance to each to  make conscious decision on your own.  If I give you one, maybe I get another to survive? maybe.

 all I can say is thank you for those who come talking to me,even just hi, taking such a chance to do so in this world?  all I know is that you had nothing to hide from me and it  felt good just itself. So thank you.


Having such hard time trusting people lately. It is getting harder to trust nonphysical,too.
because if one act of helping were to be wrong decision of mine, I would have never had the revelation.  Yet I did and all I witnessed was plan to protect those who betrayed me and all I feel is deception to hide the wrong doing as if it all was my fault  and all I see in people is image of Jesus,sometimes, his name,cross, sometimes love,sometimes anger and frustration which I have trouble figuring out
So I keep asking What really is going on?
Where really is the  Jesus at?
Chaos and nightmare got so big that no way fixing,so heading to self destruction?
thats how I feel. Having hard time praying appreciating God.  Yet I don't know what really is going on.

I always know what I wanted entire my life.   I wanted to live in environment feeling free and safe. safe to say things I feel, safe to get up in the morning without crying, safe enough to cry whenever I want to, safe to laugh without upsetting anyone safe to share good thing without being afraid of getting betrayed or stolen, safe to say hi, safe to say bye to anyone whenever I encounter. safe to be anywhere wherever without making anyone afraid of me  or feeling uncomfortable.  I found that. I had everything I ever wanted at one point of my life. I was healed from all the wound of life and thought I could be better, more powerful person, and  when I started caring about other people's happiness before mine, I lost  most valuable thing in my life because of all of you who didn't know the true value of things..  any animals are more lovable and understanding things than what I see in people ?


the life  I live is life deprived all the security I feel and love I found in my entire life.
 If this is the idea of your Christianity, I would gladly share this life with all of you in one form or another if that is your asking. things to do with the list or not.core of everything used to be love, but they took away from me.  What do you expect?
I would like to know how and what happened while I was putting up this torture all alone.
My door is always open for people who want to discuss things.
 most anything, I need time to recover,  I need true rest and trust to people  to be restored.  Please help me.


 this is   my dare and also crying out for help

I believe people's life is valuable than other animal's life in many ways though it does not mean those animal's life values less. It is just different and life is valuable just itself and being a human,really is privilege if you know the true value of things that exist in this whole  world.

Gamble to be paid?

Gamble to be paid?

I started to believe where you are born and how horoscope is written are part of life plan as intended before the birth.

My recent realization  was that I was born to raise the bottom of Buddhism teaching. I was born in Japan where Buddhism teaching was dominant, where real Christianity had no root to grow good. Yet both case was prepared from the beginning in case one failed before the other.

The real gamble was whether Japan as country could do the right thing or not. As Buddhism dominated country, its teaching is about putting value on life itself, but irony is historically, suicide,killing self is considered to be justified and beautiful to protect superficial justification in this country. The sham was more dominant than life itself in this country. True meaning of life was neglected for long. teaching of Abraham was prepared to benefit to the both. When I found the teaching of Abraham, all I wanted to do was to be a translator to introduce their work to Japan. Although it seems to be an insurance to whichever it fail or excel, I believe it was idea prepared to spread being part of my life,being part of my life learning and achievement. It really means teaching of “Nonphysical”

In the year 2001,I had a surgery and Japan made a mistake making decision about concept of life and humanity. They just wanted to take advantage of things, in order to control things based on their non physical reading being read,yet their expectation was based on “BEFORE the “mistake” was carried out And they are still believing the mistake was “hidden”or didn't happen so they believe they deserve the benefit I might be able to provide if they could manipulate enough secretly and control to own people. To me, gag orders do not really mean much when I want to know something.The answer is that Buddism just cannot support the action no matter what.

In June, 2007, I had two job opportunities on the exact same day, after long recovery from the illness and rehabilitation. It was my beginning of my story finding Jesus itself and the story and agony is still ongoing. One job I applied was a job that allows me to work both US and Thailand where Buddhism teaching was dominant, another was store that was purely based on US. I was rejected by first one and employed by the second one. And yes, there was many “coincidence” that were related to Christianity from here, and I was led to the teaching of Abraham and was started taking unexpected journey of Christianity unknowingly . It was created by some other people, and it was the journey that was made out of people's wrong decision making. I was so blinded to figure out how people could live and act in a way taking advantages of things.

As far as I know, if Japan didn't make the “mistake”, my life path was totally different benefiting more people and myself in different ways.

I just followed guidance that existed withing me, and I am standing here writing this.

Well, the mistake was made, and I have been in my search to do the right thing to my heart. I feel I was betrayed by both religions, all the friends and family.

As my learning about Christianity, First it seems to be  about deception and lies? In order to control and to take advantage of situations and environment without getting caught. I guess Japan finally got the part of Christianity right? practice that to me for the first time was my bad luck as it seems when they had the opportunity to do so, Life sometimes really is filled with irony and sadness like this

Yes I am the fish caught by Christianity after thrown away from Buddhism by the simple mistake. despite the gag order and secrecy, I believe my inner being knows “everything” if I see one thing, that tells me more than a few possibility of fact. Many people might have been killed because of what I said and did? What I came to learn is that I have put too much trust on too many people. And there were many people who lost gamble believing I was the one who is blind about people and religions. I started to believe that spiritually blind people should not follow their heart, My advice to you all is do all that at your own risk. Sad fact is even if you doing things perfectly right, out of pure good intention, there is always hole to be fell and trap to be caught because no one is that strong or perfect all the time.

What if Japan didn't make mistake?

what I see is that President Obama was not elected and another president from bush family would have ended Christianity “naturally” It probably was autopilot both politically, religiously, socially, internationally,and It probably was at the individual level also. Well, but Japan did make mistake,so I ended up working for “change” to survive” I haven't felt the “love” for a long time. It was deprived from my experience and everyday, I feel constantly wanna kill myself, yet people just wonder why feel this way,so I am explaining Its because all I feel is depression about deception, lies, control and manipulation and gag orders. There used to be misunderstanding and bad luck involved,but I am not sure any more. Sometimes, people's love,  messing, making love, F ing, started perceived as all same to me which is not so good for my soul or my sense of being who I am and I am seeking my environment change for quite long time.
I am always hard worker.never been a good gambler.

Japanese government and me Sep16

I really do not know what is going on.  former friends of mine, who is Japanese seems to be scared of going back to their home country.  And My parents were like captured hostages  kept telling me they cannot support me, support my life, and I believe that is message from Japanese government that them saying  they do not support me or  believing me.
If those decision they made were  right, things should have been better.  I am having trouble understanding why they want to pressures  me to stay within Japan. Do they want oil?Or
My messege I received last year was until they do the right thing, I should not help them.  Of course Japan is  a country that is not familiar with Christianity.    How can I offer a help when they are the one who betrayed humanity and they are the people who do not believe what I say and do?
I think them believing Buddhism allow them to think they are special "exception" and they  could dictate my life and other countries? Sure they prepared a lot.Yet I never heard the truth  who did how and what intention.
Sometimes I fear they have remote control to end my life by a snap of switch.. yet my friends  think I am getting  a little paranoid.  yet what I might have on my brain is really bothering.- I say "might" because it is invisible yet I feel it all the time.it makes me really negative and feel fear about Japanese and   people in general.

Japan's attitude is like "you are (I am)  nothing more than a dog just like medically  treated in Japan about  ten years ago, but we need a   puppet to control the country and let Japan survive, so  must come back to Japan"-- thats  what I heard today.
 If I die sooner than anyone predicted,its Japan's fault? and their plan?   I am so stressed out and torn since last summer. I did best I could do this country to survive. Who is telling me the truth?Who is on my side?
I want to live my life
wanted to travel all over the world,
wanted to share love and wisdom I found in this process of receiving my revelation.
 Please help my intention.  till there is a sign Japan is heading to better, right direction  I  can offer no help to the country, I  know  and feel that they would take me away by force if they get away with it.so many things they are trying to get away. 
I hope to hear some good news.
Please inform me better whoever could  do
thank you




Good luck to Japan
I feel a little bad about  help I asked and Japan received so many good prayers from all over the world when there was such big earthquake in March. Of course,my asking for help here was  little,and was nothing to do with me as they claim. yet why do they care so much  and want me so desperately?
I will go Middle east before I go to Japan.  thats my honest statement at this point

Keeping the Faith (movie)

I believed and lead life  believing that being religious and being a  communist  are somewhat negative.
I was raised in a way that made me believe having a religion with commitment other than Buddhism(by default sort of) is somewhat unfavorable, weird, or somewhat scary.  It was partially cultural factors in order to be  practical and blended in majority for  eyes of others and for harmony of  communities.  Japan's culture is often characterized as   homogeneous  where United States is heterogeneous.
In case of Japan,things had to be that way at some level.  for a such small densely populated country
To create harmony on surface,many things are sacrifice as it seems.

We do have right to choose own belief legally,but religions are hardly issue or subject of conversation until someone passes away or getting married or something. it is hardly an serious issue or fun issue just like anywhere else in the world.
And I thought about freedom of faith,or religion although religious issues are not my focus of attention much.
However, my own choices are always at my focus..choose to be right and wrong even when not knowing what is right..choose to be same  as others or choose to be different away from majority or,choice to  express or not to express, being different and allowing other to be different as much as own is usually fearful to most,and  and I am also one of them.
majority 's opinion could be somehow ideal time to time,too.
choice about to be violent or to be a  peace maker is really complicate my life. Talking about   love or talking about  something else.  I do all this and everyone of us do every moment of life.even away from the subject of religion
and I found a movie about choice and religions and being happy, being proud not just in the eyes of God,but also in the eyes of friends and family.

The movie called Keeping The Faith was interesting and funny, giving me totally different perspective about religions.  I always knew that some people are just happy with thing as they are with or without particular religion  Although practically, politically, there are a lot of issues regarding religions.  It is complicated problems, I know little to discuss anything about anybody.  But this movie addressed and promoted very positive part of religions and sort of uplifting the whole issue concerning negative aspect of having religion, being religious. 

It is a story about three children, two boys and one girl, who spent their childhood as best friends  in New York. As they grew up,  One became a rabbi, and one became a catholic priest and both truly loves the one girl they spent childhood with.  The story begins with  priest's confession style to a  bartender at an Irish bar.

it mentioned difference between religion and faith and message,and  whole plot was witty, really lovable.   Got me interested in something so unknown.  It strongly implied that there are so many good thing, good happy people who know how to enjoy life at  where I never seen or I have not been in this part of the world and that was just wonderful finding.  And I like Ben Stiller,too. learned a little bit about those two religions I never had chance to know  before.

/here is best part of quote from the movie.

"many may get confused with religion and faith..question about them
questions about religion has an answer about knowledge? ,but Faith is not having  right answer.  Faith is a feeling.  Faith  is a hunch. It's a hunch that there is something bigger connecting  it all, connecting us all together
 that hunch is God,and  you connecting with the feeling, that is act of faith"

and I thought people who is blessed by the faith in life must be truly happy. Having own  life development,both in and out of the faith,yet always know where to go back to find its way to be happy.. as it seemed to me.
I am not blessed with such firm religious faith in my life,but  am just hoping all kind of faith serves us all to be happy.

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baby benefit

I have a question about marriage.  I always wanted to be a good wife in order to have a good family. and I pursued the dream as much as I could. I had disagreement with the Japanese friends about idea of marriage.
One of those friends  "accidentally" got pregnant.   She needed help supporting the baby,she got close to a Rock musician who had million dollar in bank, and was able to sleep with him one night. Later, she told him that the baby was his and asked to get married and bought a house and started raising the baby together and even brought another children to this world after that.
   I liked the  musician, and wanted to help his divorce,so kept supporting him,but he was so attached to those children,and decided to give up his life and he  decided to live just to provide the children.  Later he found out that none of those children was his and asked God for answer who did the right thing.
i think my Japanese friends think the Japanese friend did the right thing,and just getting caught was stupid,yet  she got to live safe and secure life as intended.
All I thought was it is not fair when both the woman and the man  wanted to save and love babies and children.
 What is love in this? What is love anyway?
What is marriage?
What is best for children?

Who get most benefited having children? and is the  benefit part of the plan buried in life called "survival"?, life without love?
Its nothing to do with Christianity or Nationality.
Its about how to bring happy children to this world. I thought,
but many thinks I am so out of reality and most of my friends know that I am not healthy enough to have own child.  And they think I am the one who need  "rehabilitation" to adjust to their idea. I just have no word and feel  "whatever!" about this.
but I always loved and cared small children and know how to love many people many things.

  After all,if you  think I am "wrong", I don't get to decide whats right or wrong to each of you.

Abraham explains trauma

My fight for forgiveness

I was wondering the day I imagined my future with my friend in 2007 when I thought I found my true love for life. At that time, I never felt I would live this long, and when he asked about how our future will be,I really had no answer.

I read that Jesus was saved by Judas. And Judas saved Jesus from the torture and the passion,sort of thing.(just like Seth Speak described) But like I thought, it could have been written that way in order not to scare me. I truly believe he did experienced the passion just "how" is something I am not sure.,but one thing for sure is that when we all are talking about just physical event or rather spiritual or psychological,there can be many possible answers.

Then started thinking if I was meant to be dead going through the torturous experience,too. I really asked for help of all kind, eventually, I found my way out there and came back to life where I am now, and fact is the gamble is still going on and no one has “saved” me,and am trying to figure out how to save myself all on my own without putting anyone in Judas shoes. Not sure if it is possible or not.  I am just waiting for my time.

I never believed that people could commit homicide in the name of religions or for so called prophecy to be fulfilled whole my life. When I found out about what my friends did and country of Japan did to me, I have been in such a struggle to find right answer what to do. I mean I was angry and depressed when I wanted to believe  good intention.  Who would plant the computer chip so they can monitor,project, sense and images?

What I mean here  is about my close friends, family and the country I trusted. But one thing for sure is I hate to live in life filled with regret or life filled with hate and anger where it could be love and something better. I know my life deserve same chance as others even after all those abuses and pain I experienced.

What I am hoping and to ask is you all give me some space till I feel safe and secure sharing same space with those of you again. I am asking the understanding and physical, psychological room between us for awhile. I hope someday, we all  go merrily way.

Hoping that time heal us all and I am sure you all are also victims at some level as much as I was this time.

Just this time, there is no single friend of mine wanted to “ save” me from the situation, by letting me escape from there. I had to face it and It was both good and bad after all. I am trying to believe it was how things meant to be, and hope no one really got killed for it.

So from here my concern is my recovery from the trauma and the fear..

took long,but I hope I got my thought straight for better.

Sincerely

その日その日のためのアドバイス

Abraham- chill out!

Abraham explain "2012"

Abraham explain Appreciation and Gratitude

Always (movie) and F word ( partial repost)

Fuck is all the actions without intention of  love,rather act for manipulation,or power game.

Distinction between fuck and mess is existence of misunderstanding and something related to a  chains of unfortunate  events.

Happiness is rewards for those who is strong enough to take all kind of chances

more than word maybe the excuse  for those who are lazy not to express how they feel,chicken enough not being able to say what they want

more than words really meant is power of love that let you  overcome anything

Words are just part of the intentions that let you connect dream and reality

Chance is representation of the faith in love and good intentions

 Intention is  core of the honesty

I hate the movie "Always"

 It ain't love story

When one truly love someone, the one just cannot help but to  tell " I love you" without a  second thought or any fear, any hesitation.

Just good lessen in the story is that chances for happiness are all surrounding us,real action of love does not choose time or place

there is only impulse and knowing of the truth. actions based on the love and truth never let you fail, always gives more chances than needed.

where doubt and fear always let you fail till you learn real meaning of love, real meaning of unconditional love

When you realized the truth, it is the chance for the happiness

If  eyes are blinded, they just have to live in the dark till they learn the meaning of the light.meaning of the truth

 Irony is that the light is usually right in front of the face, they could only know any time  if they are willing to open their eyes.

 this is one of philosophy and I am looking and waiting for people who can live the words.

True man show (movie)

More I know about what bible is or how bible describe things, I get lost  to figure out what people are really wanting out of it.

I believe Abraham is collection of energy that is created by ancestors who lead us all to right direction away or along with belief or  religions.because I see commonality in all the teaching, just in different expression.

I thought I could change the direction telling writing things,so everybody can make better decision.

I watched movie Trueman show last night.  It was not quite what I expected.

 The movie I saw was strange.  it was sort of looking at my life some way.  the difference is the "creator" is not human in my life.

I think the movie is about former president Trueman's nightmare coming true. I think all fell for communism in  the name of "religions"

everybody say same things, afraid to be different,started asking questions about when and how to hold babies and children, when to help, how to help, no one can't make own decision forgetting own job each used to choose consciously.

Is it OK?

more I say,  things go crazy because we are  not speaking same languages.  wonder why Babel tower in bible  collapsed?  something is really going wrong here.  Or is that right?I mean is that what we want?

It sounded like good idea isn't it?

 I shared  song "follow me" but I never liked to be "followed"

following each one's heart, isn't that Jesus was teaching?

 Just give info, and let it be.  just like its been, leave bible alone,leave bad literature and let things be?

I am tired of act talking   to "small children" for understanding when you all claim that you are better adult and mature than me.

My composition at elementary school about my future job was to be a special ed teacher to take care physically and mentally disabled children because I was raised watching my disabled brother and saw many people looking down on him and took advantaged of him, we got stones thrown at to us just being different, I thought that was my job to protect those in weak position in understanding of "people", and  thought it was meant to my job.but  that is when I believed being healthy is something I should feel guilty about and I believed  I should not wish my life to be happy or better, when I know anybody else believe they deserve much better than what I have or had.

What kind of world are we living now?

I know Japan is like part of North Korea now, forcing people to synchronize in "red"in order to hide the secret mistake

I thought cold war was over and America was free company

How much of what I feel is true now?

it seems outlaw about many things and everybody living in the war all over again

what happened to the peace and love, and freedom we all thought  wanted?

Is it my fault giving permission? letting people take advantages of me?  and that made people believe it is OK to take advantages of "things"just like "they" did?

.you choose your own life  direction.
I just love to be free from  all the responsibility you press onto my shoulders in the name of Jesus.

 American loves telling saying "I told you so"
but because of many misunderstanding, he could never be able to say that to any.  but from here, I think I can   because I gave you the answer, and its all your responsibility from here. I will start learning to say "I told you so"  

because I truly loved and cared small kids and  babies and whenever I see bad covering, hurting them,, I just removed the bad  and let them be, if you call the curse, its your fault not being able to see the intention.

you all are on your own just like I am.  pick your own belief, pick your own god that protect you alwaysgive you love always and you can feel love always.

if you haven't seen before, NEW to you

This is what I wrote earlier this year:

Hi Mickey,
 think I will leave Goofy alone for awhile.  I think he love his wife better for now, cried a lot last night, but this is my own life and Goofy had nothing to do with it.  I think I got him scared a lot.
I didn't even know myself. Honestly. I should be apologizing to him?
All I wanted was Disneyland of our own to be happily ever after.  The truth is more I wanted to know about Goofy, Minnie’s weird power accelerated
By the way,
This is what vision looked like while putting my head on Mickey’s chest the other day.
Maybe Goofy made a deal with his in law taking over in law's company.  Mickey did work for the company for long, too?
But Mickey and Goofy were close friends since they are rebellious kids in Disneyland.

Maybe they spend sometime on the sea boat for fun of it, too and that’s where they had fun enjoyed things out of reality?

Eventually Mickey woke up from the bad dream, fell in love, and got married, got a beautiful child, and got tattoo, and has been living normal life without making a bad trip without leaving the reality.

Since then, Goofy tried to do the same, and friendship got out of Disneyland, but recently got all back just because Goofy messed up fucking princes of Witch in the tower.  The princess had ability to keep Goofy on short leash keeping away from his bad behavior, and princess taught Goofy hard love called “living” and surviving with money, but without love. But Goofy did not love the princess or way of her living and always wanted to leave her behind. Their marriage was legal in the Disney land, but never been good one before eyes of God but Princess was pleased being practical.

One day, Goofy met a dog called Allie met and fell in love deeply  each other.

They created very beautiful dream in their mind and dreamed happily ever after.

Goofy was so determined to be successful and did his best following the books and advice from his friends.  And yes Mickey used to be one of them.

Yes.  Goofy did everything he could for pretty puppy called Allie, but Goofy messed up something big just being who he is, being funny and being a dog.  He never experienced motherly love and kept having problem with women.

One day, Goofy asked Mickey for help getting out of the mess he created, because he created third personality called Minnie to hide Allie from the Princess’s eye.  Goofy just wanted to protect Allie from all the bad things, but things got even more chaotic.  After Princess finding out  Goofy’s doggy business, there was time of tit for tat in their world of marriage, but things got even more chaotic   because there was other drama happening.

Because there were people who believe that the Allie may be a gold DOG. And there are so many dramas unfolding around Allie, and it was more than anybody could ever think of.

One fortunate thing was Mickey had skill to keep Allie safe and keep Goofy on leash shorter than it should be.  Mickey was one of strong minded responsible mice, who loved cats and know how to love weirdest, most beautiful thing called life in most gentle way 

As much as Goofy was in love with Allie, now Goofy wish nothing to do with Allie because Goofy got scared and trying to escape to Disney world again.  He is most destructive and crying a lot in Allie’s Dream.  Allie got frustrated and shouted out “speaking princess language that

Whatever”

,Allie is heart broken and crying, but Mickey is courageous and responsible mouse He is still trying to   take care Goofy and trying to understand Allie as  friend, trying to do the right thing, figuring out what is best, what really is going on in the world of the Disneyland..

Funniest  thing is Minnie want both Mickey and Goofy although she still believe Goofy is true love, Mickey is the same as Minnie and share a lot of feeling as mouse and also loves craziness called life in same way. They both know that Goofy is always funny and make whole thing funny and make everyone’s face brighter because he always create something wonderful just like no one else would do. 

It is most precious and beautiful pure soul and Goofy is purest, baby with full of light just like any other babies.
Minnie is wishing most weird, happiest thing like no one ever seen before.

Minnie is wishing that will also provide many answers to gold dog believers.
 Minnie know a lot of things but
Minnie still loves Goofy and the fact has put her in such a trouble minded.,

Because how destiny draw picture was that:

 Goofy is the reason Minnie found meaning of life, also the reason why she could trust Mickey and enjoy time together without worry or negative thoughts. 

And because of Mickey, Minnie could keep dreaming as who she is feeling secure, feeling good, dreaming about what both used to dream with Goofy keeping her Disney land safe and secure..
All Minnie wants to know is where each is at, if she has to stay alone whole her life or not.  Could she get all she wants or not.
Allie maybe a golden dog to the others, but Goofy and Mickey know she is a good naughty bitch,too.  Just not a typical American bitch enough.  And that’s what she wishes.  Allie heard messages that everyone learned a lot already it is time to create even more beautiful world, wonderful Disney world.

And the good bitch want to have good time doing something simple taking care men she cares most making her  life brighter, making money together living, enjoying life together and hoping to inspire others as a result
Minnie appreciate and love Mickey and Goofy so much and Minnie need both of them.

Whether living things in the dream or the nightmare is up to Mickey’s and Goofy's hands

Minnie know that Goofy always wanted to share taste of Minnie with friends and as much as Minnie felt offended about Goofy's idea of three some, the sharing, open minded spirit is one of the reason she fell in love with Goofy and to bring peace to the Disney world, She is determined to do what it takes now and Goofy’s threesome sounds peaceful and fun to her mind.(just for not F-ing,but for making love)

Minnie always wanted someone helpful to keep Goofy  in good shape, keeping him in safe place good course in actions without dropping anything anywhere just because Goofy is so sensitive and sentimental and so funny that not good at keeping up lies and manipulation though good at being manipulated by princess and bitches
Minnie know that Mickey love Goofy despite the fact the Goofy may not like the idea that Minnie like Mickey too much or more than she should  to be normal.

But Mickey and Minnie are very good at handling other people's crazy business whole their lives, so they both just love Goofy and supporting, waiting Goofy to open up his heart after breaking the spell of princess/witch who bought a castle in Fortuna where every precise business decision was made at first place, yet falling apart a little? Because Goofy didn't tell Mickey whole thing till recently?
Darn is Mickey psychic? or is Minnie finally pushed to the edge?
Is all miracles happened in my life because of Mickey and Goofy? Or gold dog believers?
Who am I ?

Would you care to tell me?
 love you Mickey,   love you Goofy
manna play with me?

Please just breathe and try to understand there is only love for all.

Since then Minnie found out a lot, and she has been struggling.Since  Allie found out that Goofy was still fond of her, Allie decided to wait for him,but she has no choice but to  working all alone  to take care her Disneyland.

One day, she found out about her secret past.

Minnie realized many her friends of her was becoming aggressive over asset and inherited money of the Disneyland previously made.

So she researched and found sub stories that was happening behind the scene.

When Minnie was sick missing Goofy, there was her old friend Tarzan who offered a ride to Hospital.  Minnie had given Tarzan Goofy’s phone number, so Minnie thought the ride from the Tarzan was Goofy’s wish and intention,so she took the ride and arrived   big boat of Pirates in the Caribbean world.

Those pirates demanded Minnie special power by torturing her,she was torn, saw the people’s gamble in the world, in order to let everybody win,(Caribbean boat is part of Disney world,so she saw no harm) she just give it away some and came back to her home, Disneyland

Minnie   appreciated the Tarzan and his girlfriend snow white. And seven dwarfs knowing Goofy really  financed and helped Minnie.

But one day, Minnie found out that the Tarzan was threatening Goofy because Tarzan wanted his forever passport to the magical kingdom Disneyland,

 And Minnie  also found out that the Tarzan, snow white and seven dwarfs sold Minnie to the Pirates and they  were stealing things from Disney world while Minnie was trapped in the Pirate of Caribbean boat theme section.

One day, Minnie realized Tarzan and the seven dwarfs were spies sent from those Pirates and she learned Mickey and Goofy were fighting to repel them. Minnie realized all the magic she saw on the pirates boat was from Goofy,but Goofy really didn’t know the whole story  when he helped. He didn’t know how ruthless  those pirates were.  Tarzan and snow white and those dwarfs really took advantaged of Goofy’s good will and his money, but they cannot go back to the boat any more, so all are floating in the air holding the money in hands.

Minnie’ felt very threatened, because she found out that the Pirates had thought that Allie was gold DOG, ten years ago, pirates had planted computer chip inside of Allie’s brain. She was dog to them, so no one didn’t know about the secret., but the Tarzan, snow white, and the seven dwarf knew Minnie would not be able to love her work or  love anything because of the abuse and torture happened on the pirates boat, decided to rob all the asset and things out of Disneyland.

Tarzan and snow white and seven dwarfs were very vicious and Mickey and Goofy were getting tired because it is our Disneyland.   Beautiful image and dreams are very important to us all. Eventually, more and more people from outside Disneyland tried to help, but no one know what to do now.  There is prophecy of Walt Disney and teaching of all kinds mixed up, everyone started losing reality.

Minnie want to remove her stuffed animal face and want to show she really is "human" inside, but people are worried if it will ruin children’s dream and  future..

So Minnie has been fighting with her friends.  Minnie do not know Walt Disney’s prophecy at all, but Mickey and Goofy, know, so she decided to maintain calm. Living life with no love.  Minnie thought Tarzan, snow white and seven dwarfs were her good friends, so she is very hurt and trauma of the torture is ruining Minnie’s love and spirit  day by day.

Yet she’s been waiting to be saved.

Is there any end to this nightmare?? Or Minnie has to do it herself?

P.S. This event description has nothing to do with Walt Disney character that exist in US,and each character represent someone else or something else.this is sort of "parable"

 to express things indirectly keeping things private.

Dream

My dream, what I wanted was just things to be OK.  I thought and believed that I am here to give you all the "answer".(yet whether  believe or not to believe is up to you)
Sure  life first and love second.  and yet life without love is hell of living.
anyone can live on grain,yet I wanted more than life of chimps to my friends. I think it was beginnings of idea, purpose of  all the religions that exist in this whole world. just guide for better life being human,other than an animal.

Abraham's teaching,along with the idea, the book"Seth Speaks" t was eye opening to me,wanted to share with my friends.
 in the bible, Jesus was tortured and killed, but the book "Seth Speaks" describes what really happened in different way

First I thought it was my text book not to stir any fear to my life. maybe purposely   described things that way? maybe?
 But when everybody could be saved,just by sharing the information,just saving Jesus himself be  best thing to do?


Is Christianity  about pushing anyone to the side, so you can have what you want?
I think if Jesus were saved just himself, he would blame for the tactics to cheat anybody else that was in the plot.  If he were to be such great teacher,he wanted to be saved by all. and wanted to live with all.
Sure, he wanted to live, yet what if Shakespeare's   Romeo and Juliet sort of play was going on behind the scene?And what if he had lost his love over the plot? Would Christian  be  willing to put that episode in the bible?
What if he had lost faith in people when things were done, and that caused blank period in our history?
 Yes he ended up sacrificing himself and he did best leaving many correspondences.
What if we all have chance to do things better having opportunity, what is best thing to do?

When I found Jesus, it was a love story.  but if everything has two side to the story, both physical and non physical, what  kind of life are we living?based on his message and based on his sacrifices?
Question I would like to ask you all  is Do you want to live all alone even after all sort of war is over and no one is fighting and loving each other and living in peace,yet  everybody knows you betrayed  others in order to save your physical life self only
it could be dream or nightmare.

Yes I am getting tired of witnessing things here and there. More I speak, maybe I am creating more confusion.
life is important and it is  everybody's birth right to explore,and enjoy, and surviving. but I 'd like to believe our life is better than what chimps go through.
love is just love, but life without caring and love, is as good as hell of living.  tricky part is more you know about true love, it hurts to  live life.  you sure can imagine his agony.
 that is  my life, I am living because you all  made same mistake  all over even after few thousand years.


I am not a traditional terms of"christian". I am just a crazy lover,  Jesus lover.
have a lot to say about Middle East, but I am taking Jesus's advice not to put  too much trust to  "his friends" 
 what I want is to live life with you all yet.
my life is ruined already anyway.  I just wanted leave things in best way as "I" wanted to
 if you don't believe that, you aren't be reading this sites anyway.
I still live all alone, am paying and living someone's  mistake because I didn't have much to say,could not say much, because I chose to  let others decide my fate, before believing in myself much before.

 If you have things to say come to say thing to my face with your name on your face.
 but please forgive me that no one cannot make me "like" anything  I don't like. All I can do for  is  I can  learn to love or learn to live by understanding.